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Come May, there will be no more KAMEEKIMI.BLOGSPOT.COM

I will have to leave these memories within the vicinity of my HS life. I have given my insights [more like teenage angst and drama] about my highschool - mostly Senior - days, and for me now, it is over. My one year spent with blogspot was alright. Considering the lack of knowledge about Java scripts and layouting etc... (c'mon, why do you think I stayed with Gackt and Hyde as wallpapers... just kiddin' - but true.)

I bid thee, ILLUMINATI SANCTUS, a warm goodbye. A kiss from me to you, though not to suffice for the memories we've shared, I do hope you're not mad at me.


... I had/have 3 journals. One was the HI5 thing - Junior Year. One is a real journal - Sophie to Senior year. And Illuminati - 3/4 Junior to Senior year. Sue me. I need more outlets.

I shall be using Illu Sanct. for -- who am I kidding! I'm giving Illuminati a permanent rest. Cheers to my on going rants and raves. Farewell to HS and to my liken immature manners. I will strive to mature, hell yeah.

SAYONARA! Thank you also for the people who passed by my blog and read my experiences. If you will never/ just didn't find out about my upcoming new blog, don't feel bad. I have 2 reasons:

1) I forgot to mention it to yah. So you just have to remind me to tell you, ask me the site or find it for yourself. I FORGOT.
2) I don't want you to know because, no matter how bad this will sound, I want to have a truce with you. I don't need the pressure that came, is coming, will come from you as a person so. TRUCE. I'm not obliged to tell you, or you to even know my goddamn blog. TRUCE.

That is all.

ILLUMINATI SANCTUS, KAMEEKIMI.BLOGSPOT.COM : Now signing off.

Thank You

and

Goodbye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Since I was dumb enough to forget yet smart enough to realize before the month ended...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ILLUMINATI SANCTUS!

He's one year old. Orayt! Sorry honey, I didn't forget... I just forgot. ^_^

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My day? I just finished my whole Holy Week agenda. Nope, no Shibuya. I'll be there, though. May. So uh. Yah. I can't seem to express myself. I uploaded one original story [Fictionpress.com] entitled Unang Ulan. It was a short story I made during my Sophomore year. I'm missing HS simply because I was given a taste of how it is during one's college days. Deym. If others survived, then why may I not? Then again, who's stopping me from surviving, ne? Oh yeah. ANIMAX, YOU ARE GOING TO PAY FOR MY 2 HOURS SPENT IN CABLE VIEWING. I shortened my bath to 30 minutes so I can be in front of the tv by 10pm. I wasted an entire hour waiting for that sneak preview of Full Metal Alchemist just bec... I wanted to hear toosan sing, damn you, Animax. What did you give me? WHAT DID YOU GIVE ME?!! A SEMI-SATISFYING SHOW OF ANGEL TALES! DAMY YOU ANIMAX. THIS.MEANS.WAR.

Well boo-hoo for demanding so much from a cable operated tv show but hey. If they made a mistake in popping up the first four eps. of that freakin' anime, instead of FMAlchemist, then they should've stopped the show immediately. The news were all over the goddamn station! "Feast your eyes on the first four eps. of FULL METAL ALCHEMIST, right here on Animax." "10:00-12:00am, Full Metal Alchemist: Sneak Preview. Only here on Animax." TIME, MONEY AND ENERGY WASTERS!

BAKA!

5 sec. remaining... it was about to be finished. I knew I shouldn't have clicked on that stupid sign, "want to enlarge?" BAKA!!! TOTEMO BAKA!!!! I clicked it. Because it felt right... but something told me that it didn't feel right!!! After 2 sec. "Window is not responding" went on... in big, bold letters. I FEEL SO STUPID.

And now... i have to download it all over again -- thank you slow DSL. Thank you sooo very much. 3 fucking hours again. I have no chance on earth to document this movie. Not anymore. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

Date # 3

Yeah! Thanks My-kodomo for the date! XD Masarap bumaril ng mga siraulong tao hehe!!!

...I got tired during the end of the day. I suddenly snapped. After the whole "bye!" "bye!" thing, I walked a little bit then felt tired. My feet hurt because of that stupid pedal... my voice hurt because of singing [screaming] inside the booth with her mic totally shut - and noticing it after 3 songs already [sinong tanga?XD]... my body ached because of those guns. Oh boy, was I tired.

Now I'm back home. Thinking of the day that was. Thinking of the memorable things that happened. Imagining what it would be like if this day ran differently - speaking of, oist Ran...pangit! XD
Hmmm... ang ganda ng buhay ko talaga. Dami ko pa ring ginagwa. Ano kaya mangyayari sa pasukan. Ay grrr...

Oh yeah, i got my UPG this morning... 2.4.

I woke up and I forgot I love you. ~KiMi

"HYDE's 3rd Album will be released in Japan around 2nd week of April. In US, the album will be released in July."

...guess who's going to Japan this April? XD By chance, I don't think so. Fate? Oh yes!

FAITH - Hyde's album talks about his views on religion, esp. Christianity. [this, I must hear.] Heck. First song is entitled JESUS CHRIST. [He better have a good message for that song est he'll hear from me, oh he will.]

Here, a direct link without hiding it behind a shorter name: http://www.hi5.com/friend/profile/displayJournal.do?userid=3828849

...I wrote better stuff as insights when I was a Junior. Maybe I really slacked off during my Senior year. I can't even tell the difference between DO NOT and DON'T anymore.

Ok. That was an APRIL FOOL'S joke. *grins* no, I'm serious. No kidding! I mean, I was seriously kidding! No... wait, I was kidding that that joke is not suppose to be taken seriously because it was a joke. *silence*

I'm shutting up now.

Date # 2

Waw. Chuchu! Yung dress!!! Ay, ayoko na pala hehe. Okay. Date#2 over and out. I had fun shopping and looking and reading! Ganda nung tokyopop collection ng FULLY BOOKED. I love it! I wanna go back NOW! Ahh yes. I can't think straight. I feel heat all over and my sweat glands just don't know when to quit working - even just for a few hours, come on! Tomorrow, I'll be getting my final report card [why do I feel a sudden blast of 7 in my head?] then I have to fall in line sa ANIMO, then buy some things for the new school then book... go home. Or not. Or maybe yeah. Or not. Deym. Am I leading a hard life or what?

Great guns. If I enter DLSU, I think I won't be seeing the other side of life for a bit longer than I thought. My music passion would be stagnant as to where I'll be leaving it - it hurts me, just thinking about it, it really does. But I have no choice. BS BioChem [yes, folks. Ndi na ako Chem. May Bio na rin, so help me Lord. I need at least 10 units ng Bio to enter Med. School e.]will bring me into good light in the near future but dude... my passion for that's like, ok, don't get me wrong... 100% din naman ang passion and interest ko to be a doctor but music... performing live... ongaku... bands... laruku... jrock... jpop... singing! PLEASE! If that part of me gets blown away or be put to rest, I can't live - hell, I WON'T LIVE. Look at it from my perspective - SCIENCE+ARTS = KIMI. Science is a form of art so see which one gets the bulk in the equation? Yes. I believe I have to strive double. And wow. 1 month and 2 wks MAXIMUM ang break ko for the whole school year. Have I said enough to feel the fire burning near the whole "Kimi, enter this school and you will have discipline." Greatguns! Anaknglupa'tongbuhayna'to! "Kimi, paano kung working student ka pa?" Ayan. AYAN ANG GANTIMPALANG KATANUNGAN. Oo nga naman. Paano kung nagwowork pa ako. Ok, ok. So maybe these rants are superficial but the problem is...

YOU DO NOT KNOW ME. And the word superficial is passe to you but for me, its not.
Exuberant thinker, yes. That's who I am. Internal conflicts are my specialty. Phobophobia is my game. Challenges... they come and go. I pass some, I get passed by some.

...can't think.Too hot.My bad. Sayonara!

THIS has got to be a sign!!!

You scored as Chemistry. You should be a Chemistry major! As if that isnt clear enough, you are deeply passionate about Chemistry, and every single chemical reaction and concept fascinates you. Pursue that! Chemistry 92% Theater 92% Journalism 92% Biology 83% Dance 75% English 75% Philosophy 75% Sociology 75% Engineering 75% Psychology 75% Linguistics 75% Anthropology 67% Art 67% Mathematics 42% What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com

oh look, Math's waaaaayyyyy behind the finish line ehehe... but doesn't it take math skills to be a great chemist? Oh joy. pure joy. And theater is interrelated to arts, yet I get a smucky 62% for art and a 92% for theater... there's something wrong. XD

You scored as Malkavian. You belong to the Malkavian bloodline. The Malkavians are blessed with an "inner sight" which often gives them great perception and even clairvoyance. Many are sought for their counsel and insight. The drawback, however, is that they are all entirely insane. If a vampire is speaking in obscure riddles, it's a fair bet they are of Malkavian blood. Malkavian 96% Toreador 75% Ventrue 71% Tremere 67% Brujah 63% Gangrel 58% Nosferatu 42% What vampire clan do you belong to? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as gay. gay 83% straight 33% gay or staight created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Loki. Loki 100% Freyr 80% Bragi 70% Balder 70% Odin 70% Skadi 70% Sif 70% Frigg 70% Freya 60% Hel 60% Heimdall 50% Njord 40% Thor 40% Tyr 40% Which Norse God or Goddess are you most like? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Musical/Rhythmic. You are sensitive to sounds in your environment, enjoy music and prefer listening to music when you study or read. You learn best through melody and music. People like you include singers, conductors, composers, and others who appreciate the various elements of music. Musical/Rhythmic 86% Intrapersonal 86% Interpersonal 71% Logical/Mathematical 68% Verbal/Linguistic 68% Visual/Spatial 50% Bodily/Kinesthetic 46% The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Telepathy. You posess the power of Telepathy!! Your mind flows far and wide to touch the one you choose. Telepathy 100% Mind Control 94% Perception 94% Shape shift 69% Charisma 63% Shadow walking 44% What vampiric power do you most possess? created with QuizFarm.com

Let's and Go = Let Go?

Last time, I had L'arc en ciel as the band. This time...

Choose a band/musician and answer only in song titles by them:

Gackt [from GacktJOB]

Are you male or female? Fragrance
How old are you? Ares
Describe yourself: Memories
Describe your family: Love Letter
How do some people feel about you? Oasis
When you see your enemy, what's your initial reaction? Doomsday
How do you feel about yourself? Mirror
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Speed Master
Describe your views on significant others and crushes: Vanilla
Describe what you want: You [oops... this is not a song....]; Kimi ni Aitakute
Describe how you live: Ju-Ni-Gatsu no Love Song
Describe how you love: Kimi no Tameni Dekiru Koto
Describe love: Rain
Share a few words of wisdom: Feel the Fire

Date # 1

Mr. Geanelle [gringrin], thanks for the nice day! I really had fun - no sarcasm there, gurl. Now. We ate, we walked [damn you for that, tsk... libreng sakay.... badtrip....] we dumped Mr. Humpty dumpty [is that how you say that egg-head's name?] and got a lot of goodies, well sorta... uh... um... and here I am with my wits drained. Arcade, out of Eastwood [cool place, btw.], went to Shang, drove each other crazzzzzy, watched a chick-flick made JUST for 'Nel ["She's the Man" -- looovvveeee it!!!] then went home. I really enjoyed myself. Nice date. Thank you! >:D<

PS... "Nel! Nel! Si J*j* sa likod mo dali!!!" ~love, secret admirer. ['the hell...]

Uhu, so um... I'm a little bit tired [gomen Gackt-san.] but I uh... I feel so bobo. At conyotic ako waw. I dunno what to say. After I took a loooooonnnnng bath [yes friends, longer than my usual long bath], I felt so tired... drained... useless... lifeless...leesssss.... eeeddddd..... which brings me to addicted...? Oh no. Please. I am no-... or am I? Is he...? No... I don't think he's... but I... OH DAMNIT!!! WHADDAHEYLLLEMISEYYYINNN?!!!

Here's the thing. When I saw that guy posing as toosan - okay, maybe a fanboi of toosan, I asked myself, "Deym gurl... what is wrong with this world?" But the truth was, I wanted to get to know that person. It was not pure coincidence that I was called to look at that one spot in the midst of a thousand people hanging their souls to balance their fate. Come on! It was an offertory. I was suppose to look straight ahead, hold that basket and look prepared - why did I turn my head, look up high and yes, why did I see him? And he was looking back. Drop dead ge-... ok, way beyond what I was thinking of. He was radiant - bad light, actually. He was sitting while everybody else was standing. He rested his right mandible on his right hand... looking perfectly like toosan. That held my heartbeat for about oh I dunno... until Dana said "Uy... lalakad na..." And why do I still remember it? Otoko no hito ga... Sore otoko no hito - oboeru nandesuka?

YoUKiMiYoU

Whenever his soulmate sings something with "Kimi dake yo" "Kimi ni aitakute..." "Boku wa Kimi no Vanilla" "Itsumademo kimi..." ---- it isn't actually me. It's you. I dunno. It's sad to know that you can never fit in a club made for two. But I am happy, nonetheless. They were made for each other. ^_^ I'll be honored to be their [somekinda] child, if ever I meet them. Camui, You. A very good couple. No bitterness here. None, I swear.

So, what have I been up to? For the past week, Grad. practice. And... here, a run down.

FRIDAY AFTERNOON [3/10/06] = I positioned my classmates and shot some of the pics for the Breakfast at Tiffany's classpic - final classpic. I feel great. Positioning them, seeing them in their pretty dresses/gowns, looking like Audrey Hepburn, having make up on, panicking and getting harassed by the limited time etc... it is very nice to observe people, you try it. ^_^ Yes, I am a very observant person.
FRIDAY NIGHT [3/10/06] = I, Kimi, put make up on by myself... for the very first time. And I am proud. Nechy was proud of me too! Take note! ANG GANDA NUN! Wow. Innate naman pala sa babaeng katulad ko [shuttup. walang magrereact.] na maging marunong magmakeup. ^____^

SATURDAY MORNING [3/11/06] = I went to the DLSU pre-orientation. I met some people from the Chem Soc., I met the dean of the College of Science, the Vice Dean, the Chemistry Chairman, some faculty members... wow. The labs were awesome! St. Joseph was cute. Mukhang college tlga. Aircon-ed rooms, the people were having fun. At masaya yung orgs na iba din naman. ^_^
SATURDAY NIGHT [3/11/06] = I watched SKYHIGH [crush ko si Warren Peace] then PopJam. Ay TM Revolution... I love you. I swear.

SUNDAY MORNING - AFTERNOON [3/12/06] = I went to the mall then Nechy bought my Grad. shoes and I had my pic taken for the pass and Jap. ^_^

Here's the thing... ngayon, nageedit ako ng indiv. Breakfast @ Tiffany's pic ko so ayun... nakakaloko ng konti lang. Ah... eto pa. Deym. I have a quick way to get to You[You-san] but.... *BLLLLUUUUSSSSSHHHHHH* I'm shy! TEEEHHHEEEEEE!!!! Nakakahiya pero oo... nahihiya tlga ako. I don't know what to say to him oh brother... "Hi You, I'm Kimi... er- we have the same name." Oh my gawd... that sucked. @_@

Oh deym... maaga na naman bukas. Puro pro&recessional na... lakad, pasok, tayo, kanta, upo, respond-respond, tayo, akyat stage, bow, baba, upo, tayo, kanta, sigawan, lakad... Congrats batch '05-'06! THE END!

ONE WEEK TO GO! ONE WEEK TO GO! AWRK! AWRK! ONE WEEK TO GO! AWRK!

2 Panalo, 2 Talo

Too bad na yung 2 talo e gusto kong school and I was left with the 2 panalo na ayaw kong school. Masama ba pakinggan? O sige. 2 FAVORED schools and 2 er-... LEARN-TO-LOVE ones. Masakit. Oo. Pero kung dun ako sa talagang pupuntahan ko, malayo ako sa dati kong mga kaibigan -- well and good, actually. Medyo, ayoko kasing sumama pa sa growth nila. Nagkakalabuan na so bakit hindi ituloy-tuloy na lang. Except for this certain someone who wants to hold on to the friendship. Thank you if you continue to hold, thank you na rin siguro if you do not. Aaminin ko, buong First Qrt, ndi ako nagseryoso, ang saklap syempre kasi hawa yung EExams dun di ba? Since hindi ako nag aral pero pumasa sa 2 at natalo sa 2, e mukhang may utak naman pala talaga ako. Summer nagbasa ako, may review classes pa pero wala sa puso e. Pano ka kaya kikilos kung wala sa puso ang ginagawa mo di ba?

Ang tanong: Masaya na ba ako ng ganito?
Sagot: Kontento, dahil walang choice, pero hindi ako masaya. Learning to love something is the one thing I have never mastered. Honestly, dahil hindi ako mapagpanggap, hindi ko kayang gamitin ang utak para turuan ang puso. I cannot say kung gaano ko katagal mapapalitan ang ganitong feeling toward the school I'm gonna enter pero oo nga naman, nung pumasok ako sa school ko ngayon, hindi naman ako ang pumili di ba? Kinder lang ako noon e. Tapos nung Frosh year ko, dapat lilipat ako - incoming Sophie. Oh? Di ba? Kung yung ganun, with haste, nagagawa ko, pano pa kaya ito? Kung hindi ko talaga magugustuhan, madaling lumipat. Swear. Sabagay, meron ngang iba... dahil hindi kaya [financial, mental, physical or emotional], lumilipat sa ibang school di ba?

"Its not the school, its what you become after the whole high school and college level."
> ang masasabi ko dyan sa nakakarinding yan ay, BOO! Tama, sige, oo... tama yang line na yan. Pero wait lang. Magagawa mo kaya ang makakaya mo [with full potential et.al.] kung hindi mo gusto yung kinagagalawan mo araw araw araw araw araw? *sigh* I may be rambling here right now, well maybe for you but for me, I'm... I don't think I will enjoy. But I don't get it...God, Father in Heaven, My Lord, WHY?

Someone... help me through this? Medyo di nyo siguro halata pero dinadamdam ko talaga. Nag aral ako, hindi naman ako bobo, bakit hindi ko pinasa? Maraming dahilan di ba? Pero pu***** *** bakit ako?

Pwedeng Mga Sagot:
> ilayo ka sa.... para wala nang.... at magpalawak ng friends.
> kasi hindi mo alam yung truth about dun sa papasukan mo.
> di ba Sag ka? Oh... konek da dats. [ito ang pinakaLAME, swear.]
> mali ang iniisip mo... mageenjoy ka. [di yan sagot, direct hypothesis na yan.]
> madaming bago dun.
> dun ka titino.
> kasi alam mo naman na mahirap talagang pumasok dun kay Manong Obli.
>ika nga ni papa "di ka bagay sa school ko noon." at sabi nya pa "mageenjoy ka sa magiging school mo."

*bummer* habol ko naman kasi independence. I don't think... I really don't... dun sa school na un makukuha ko un. Or maybe so oo. Or baka too much ang pressure sa ibang school... ay pucha. I need an answer. I need the answers! Hindi ko kayang magpabanjing banjing lang d2! Well the school where I'm headed to gave me the course I wanted, BS Chem. So... ba't nga ba ako nagrereklamo? Sa isang school Pharma art BioChem [WTHELL WAS I THINKING!!!???!?!?] tapos sa isa BS Psych [na inayawan ko na...] at sa isa BS Chem din [pero paswertehan na lang dun e... alam nyo naman un, di ba Seniors?]

So ayan... kahit na last day ngayon ng academic year ng Seniors, instead na masaya ako medyo lugmo. Kasi nga naman.... haaaaay. Payabangan na 'to pero mayabang talaga ako. Hindi ko gustong nagshishift, di ko din gustong nagpapakahirap para lang makalipat sa ibang 'branch' ng school na pinasukan. Kaya hindi ako kumuha dun sa sure ako na ipapasa ko. Call me stupid, moronic, pathetic [subukan mo lang ang magtutuos tayo.], pero pag gusto ko, gusto. Pag ayaw, ayaw. Gee, so I tested myself pala talaga ne? Konting aral lang siguro un... haaaay naku, si Kimi talaga. 0=)

PGH, here I come! Magkikita din tayo. Hindi mo ako maiiwasan!