iLLuMinaTi ~ SaNcTus

MAJOR much

2006-04-25T11:56:00.000-07:00

Come May, there will be no more KAMEEKIMI.BLOGSPOT.COM

I will have to leave these memories within the vicinity of my HS life. I have given my insights [more like teenage angst and drama] about my highschool - mostly Senior - days, and for me now, it is over. My one year spent with blogspot was alright. Considering the lack of knowledge about Java scripts and layouting etc... (c'mon, why do you think I stayed with Gackt and Hyde as wallpapers... just kiddin' - but true.)

I bid thee, ILLUMINATI SANCTUS, a warm goodbye. A kiss from me to you, though not to suffice for the memories we've shared, I do hope you're not mad at me.

... I had/have 3 journals. One was the HI5 thing - Junior Year. One is a real journal - Sophie to Senior year. And Illuminati - 3/4 Junior to Senior year. Sue me. I need more outlets.

I shall be using Illu Sanct. for -- who am I kidding! I'm giving Illuminati a permanent rest. Cheers to my on going rants and raves. Farewell to HS and to my liken immature manners. I will strive to mature, hell yeah.

SAYONARA! Thank you also for the people who passed by my blog and read my experiences. If you will never/ just didn't find out about my upcoming new blog, don't feel bad. I have 2 reasons:

1) I forgot to mention it to yah. So you just have to remind me to tell you, ask me the site or find it for yourself. I FORGOT.
2) I don't want you to know because, no matter how bad this will sound, I want to have a truce with you. I don't need the pressure that came, is coming, will come from you as a person so. TRUCE. I'm not obliged to tell you, or you to even know my goddamn blog. TRUCE.

That is all.

ILLUMINATI SANCTUS, KAMEEKIMI.BLOGSPOT.COM : Now signing off.

Thank You

and

Goodbye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2006-04-17T16:30:00.000-07:00

Since I was dumb enough to forget yet smart enough to realize before the month ended...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ILLUMINATI SANCTUS!

He's one year old. Orayt! Sorry honey, I didn't forget... I just forgot. ^_^

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My day? I just finished my whole Holy Week agenda. Nope, no Shibuya. I'll be there, though. May. So uh. Yah. I can't seem to express myself. I uploaded one original story [Fictionpress.com] entitled Unang Ulan. It was a short story I made during my Sophomore year. I'm missing HS simply because I was given a taste of how it is during one's college days. Deym. If others survived, then why may I not? Then again, who's stopping me from surviving, ne? Oh yeah. ANIMAX, YOU ARE GOING TO PAY FOR MY 2 HOURS SPENT IN CABLE VIEWING. I shortened my bath to 30 minutes so I can be in front of the tv by 10pm. I wasted an entire hour waiting for that sneak preview of Full Metal Alchemist just bec... I wanted to hear toosan sing, damn you, Animax. What did you give me? WHAT DID YOU GIVE ME?!! A SEMI-SATISFYING SHOW OF ANGEL TALES! DAMY YOU ANIMAX. THIS.MEANS.WAR.

Well boo-hoo for demanding so much from a cable operated tv show but hey. If they made a mistake in popping up the first four eps. of that freakin' anime, instead of FMAlchemist, then they should've stopped the show immediately. The news were all over the goddamn station! "Feast your eyes on the first four eps. of FULL METAL ALCHEMIST, right here on Animax." "10:00-12:00am, Full Metal Alchemist: Sneak Preview. Only here on Animax." TIME, MONEY AND ENERGY WASTERS!

BAKA!

2006-04-12T19:03:00.000-07:00

5 sec. remaining... it was about to be finished. I knew I shouldn't have clicked on that stupid sign, "want to enlarge?" BAKA!!! TOTEMO BAKA!!!! I clicked it. Because it felt right... but something told me that it didn't feel right!!! After 2 sec. "Window is not responding" went on... in big, bold letters. I FEEL SO STUPID.

And now... i have to download it all over again -- thank you slow DSL. Thank you sooo very much. 3 fucking hours again. I have no chance on earth to document this movie. Not anymore. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

Date # 3

2006-04-04T21:27:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Thanks My-kodomo for the date! XD Masarap bumaril ng mga siraulong tao hehe!!!

...I got tired during the end of the day. I suddenly snapped. After the whole "bye!" "bye!" thing, I walked a little bit then felt tired. My feet hurt because of that stupid pedal... my voice hurt because of singing [screaming] inside the booth with her mic totally shut - and noticing it after 3 songs already [sinong tanga?XD]... my body ached because of those guns. Oh boy, was I tired.

Now I'm back home. Thinking of the day that was. Thinking of the memorable things that happened. Imagining what it would be like if this day ran differently - speaking of, oist Ran...pangit! XD
Hmmm... ang ganda ng buhay ko talaga. Dami ko pa ring ginagwa. Ano kaya mangyayari sa pasukan. Ay grrr...

Oh yeah, i got my UPG this morning... 2.4.

I woke up and I forgot I love you. ~KiMi

2006-04-01T18:34:00.000-08:00

"HYDE's 3rd Album will be released in Japan around 2nd week of April. In US, the album will be released in July."

...guess who's going to Japan this April? XD By chance, I don't think so. Fate? Oh yes!

FAITH - Hyde's album talks about his views on religion, esp. Christianity. [this, I must hear.] Heck. First song is entitled JESUS CHRIST. [He better have a good message for that song est he'll hear from me, oh he will.]

Here, a direct link without hiding it behind a shorter name: http://www.hi5.com/friend/profile/displayJournal.do?userid=3828849

...I wrote better stuff as insights when I was a Junior. Maybe I really slacked off during my Senior year. I can't even tell the difference between DO NOT and DON'T anymore.

Ok. That was an APRIL FOOL'S joke. *grins* no, I'm serious. No kidding! I mean, I was seriously kidding! No... wait, I was kidding that that joke is not suppose to be taken seriously because it was a joke. *silence*

I'm shutting up now.

Date # 2

2006-03-28T19:53:00.000-08:00

Waw. Chuchu! Yung dress!!! Ay, ayoko na pala hehe. Okay. Date#2 over and out. I had fun shopping and looking and reading! Ganda nung tokyopop collection ng FULLY BOOKED. I love it! I wanna go back NOW! Ahh yes. I can't think straight. I feel heat all over and my sweat glands just don't know when to quit working - even just for a few hours, come on! Tomorrow, I'll be getting my final report card [why do I feel a sudden blast of 7 in my head?] then I have to fall in line sa ANIMO, then buy some things for the new school then book... go home. Or not. Or maybe yeah. Or not. Deym. Am I leading a hard life or what?

Great guns. If I enter DLSU, I think I won't be seeing the other side of life for a bit longer than I thought. My music passion would be stagnant as to where I'll be leaving it - it hurts me, just thinking about it, it really does. But I have no choice. BS BioChem [yes, folks. Ndi na ako Chem. May Bio na rin, so help me Lord. I need at least 10 units ng Bio to enter Med. School e.]will bring me into good light in the near future but dude... my passion for that's like, ok, don't get me wrong... 100% din naman ang passion and interest ko to be a doctor but music... performing live... ongaku... bands... laruku... jrock... jpop... singing! PLEASE! If that part of me gets blown away or be put to rest, I can't live - hell, I WON'T LIVE. Look at it from my perspective - SCIENCE+ARTS = KIMI. Science is a form of art so see which one gets the bulk in the equation? Yes. I believe I have to strive double. And wow. 1 month and 2 wks MAXIMUM ang break ko for the whole school year. Have I said enough to feel the fire burning near the whole "Kimi, enter this school and you will have discipline." Greatguns! Anaknglupa'tongbuhayna'to! "Kimi, paano kung working student ka pa?" Ayan. AYAN ANG GANTIMPALANG KATANUNGAN. Oo nga naman. Paano kung nagwowork pa ako. Ok, ok. So maybe these rants are superficial but the problem is...

YOU DO NOT KNOW ME. And the word superficial is passe to you but for me, its not.
Exuberant thinker, yes. That's who I am. Internal conflicts are my specialty. Phobophobia is my game. Challenges... they come and go. I pass some, I get passed by some.

...can't think.Too hot.My bad. Sayonara!

THIS has got to be a sign!!!

2006-03-25T00:42:00.000-08:00

You scored as Chemistry.

You should be a Chemistry major!

As if that isnt clear enough, you are deeply passionate about Chemistry,
and every single chemical reaction and concept fascinates you.
Pursue that!

Chemistry

92%

Theater

92%

Journalism

92%

Biology

83%

Dance

75%

English

75%

Philosophy

75%

Sociology

75%

Engineering

75%

Psychology

75%

Linguistics

75%

Anthropology

67%

Art

67%

Mathematics

42%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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oh look, Math's waaaaayyyyy behind the finish line ehehe... but doesn't it take math skills to be a great chemist? Oh joy. pure joy. And theater is interrelated to arts, yet I get a smucky 62% for art and a 92% for theater... there's something wrong. XD

2006-03-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

You scored as Malkavian.

You belong to the Malkavian bloodline. The Malkavians are blessed with an "inner sight"
which often gives them great perception and even clairvoyance.
Many are sought for their counsel and insight.
The drawback, however, is that they are all entirely insane.
If a vampire is speaking in obscure riddles,
it's a fair bet they are of Malkavian blood.

Malkavian

96%

Toreador

75%

Ventrue

71%

Tremere

67%

Brujah

63%

Gangrel

58%

Nosferatu

42%

What vampire clan do you belong to?
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You scored as gay.

gay

83%

straight

33%

gay or staight
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You scored as Loki.

Loki

100%

Freyr

80%

Bragi

70%

Balder

70%

Odin

70%

Skadi

70%

Sif

70%

Frigg

70%

Freya

60%

Hel

60%

Heimdall

50%

Njord

40%

Thor

40%

Tyr

40%

Which Norse God or Goddess are you most like?
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You scored as Musical/Rhythmic.

You are sensitive to sounds in your environment,
enjoy music and prefer listening to music when you study or read.
You learn best through melody and music.
People like you include singers, conductors, composers,
and others who appreciate the various elements of music.

Musical/Rhythmic

86%

Intrapersonal

86%

Interpersonal

71%

Logical/Mathematical

68%

Verbal/Linguistic

68%

Visual/Spatial

50%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

46%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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You scored as Telepathy.

You posess the power of Telepathy!!
Your mind flows far and wide to touch the one you choose.

Telepathy

100%

Mind Control

94%

Perception

94%

Shape shift

69%

Charisma

63%

Shadow walking

44%

What vampiric power do you most possess?
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Let's and Go = Let Go?

2006-03-24T21:51:00.000-08:00

Last time, I had L'arc en ciel as the band. This time...

Choose a band/musician and answer only in song titles by them:

Gackt [from GacktJOB]

Are you male or female? Fragrance
How old are you? Ares
Describe yourself: Memories
Describe your family: Love Letter
How do some people feel about you? Oasis
When you see your enemy, what's your initial reaction? Doomsday
How do you feel about yourself? Mirror
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Speed Master
Describe your views on significant others and crushes: Vanilla
Describe what you want: You [oops... this is not a song....]; Kimi ni Aitakute
Describe how you live: Ju-Ni-Gatsu no Love Song
Describe how you love: Kimi no Tameni Dekiru Koto
Describe love: Rain
Share a few words of wisdom: Feel the Fire

Date # 1

2006-03-24T21:32:00.000-08:00

Mr. Geanelle [gringrin], thanks for the nice day! I really had fun - no sarcasm there, gurl. Now. We ate, we walked [damn you for that, tsk... libreng sakay.... badtrip....] we dumped Mr. Humpty dumpty [is that how you say that egg-head's name?] and got a lot of goodies, well sorta... uh... um... and here I am with my wits drained. Arcade, out of Eastwood [cool place, btw.], went to Shang, drove each other crazzzzzy, watched a chick-flick made JUST for 'Nel ["She's the Man" -- looovvveeee it!!!] then went home. I really enjoyed myself. Nice date. Thank you! >:D<

PS... "Nel! Nel! Si J*j* sa likod mo dali!!!" ~love, secret admirer. ['the hell...]

Uhu, so um... I'm a little bit tired [gomen Gackt-san.] but I uh... I feel so bobo. At conyotic ako waw. I dunno what to say. After I took a loooooonnnnng bath [yes friends, longer than my usual long bath], I felt so tired... drained... useless... lifeless...leesssss.... eeeddddd..... which brings me to addicted...? Oh no. Please. I am no-... or am I? Is he...? No... I don't think he's... but I... OH DAMNIT!!! WHADDAHEYLLLEMISEYYYINNN?!!!

Here's the thing. When I saw that guy posing as toosan - okay, maybe a fanboi of toosan, I asked myself, "Deym gurl... what is wrong with this world?" But the truth was, I wanted to get to know that person. It was not pure coincidence that I was called to look at that one spot in the midst of a thousand people hanging their souls to balance their fate. Come on! It was an offertory. I was suppose to look straight ahead, hold that basket and look prepared - why did I turn my head, look up high and yes, why did I see him? And he was looking back. Drop dead ge-... ok, way beyond what I was thinking of. He was radiant - bad light, actually. He was sitting while everybody else was standing. He rested his right mandible on his right hand... looking perfectly like toosan. That held my heartbeat for about oh I dunno... until Dana said "Uy... lalakad na..." And why do I still remember it? Otoko no hito ga... Sore otoko no hito - oboeru nandesuka?

YoUKiMiYoU

2006-03-12T19:10:00.000-08:00

Whenever his soulmate sings something with "Kimi dake yo" "Kimi ni aitakute..." "Boku wa Kimi no Vanilla" "Itsumademo kimi..." ---- it isn't actually me. It's you. I dunno. It's sad to know that you can never fit in a club made for two. But I am happy, nonetheless. They were made for each other. ^_^ I'll be honored to be their [somekinda] child, if ever I meet them. Camui, You. A very good couple. No bitterness here. None, I swear.

So, what have I been up to? For the past week, Grad. practice. And... here, a run down.

FRIDAY AFTERNOON [3/10/06] = I positioned my classmates and shot some of the pics for the Breakfast at Tiffany's classpic - final classpic. I feel great. Positioning them, seeing them in their pretty dresses/gowns, looking like Audrey Hepburn, having make up on, panicking and getting harassed by the limited time etc... it is very nice to observe people, you try it. ^_^ Yes, I am a very observant person.
FRIDAY NIGHT [3/10/06] = I, Kimi, put make up on by myself... for the very first time. And I am proud. Nechy was proud of me too! Take note! ANG GANDA NUN! Wow. Innate naman pala sa babaeng katulad ko [shuttup. walang magrereact.] na maging marunong magmakeup. ^____^

SATURDAY MORNING [3/11/06] = I went to the DLSU pre-orientation. I met some people from the Chem Soc., I met the dean of the College of Science, the Vice Dean, the Chemistry Chairman, some faculty members... wow. The labs were awesome! St. Joseph was cute. Mukhang college tlga. Aircon-ed rooms, the people were having fun. At masaya yung orgs na iba din naman. ^_^
SATURDAY NIGHT [3/11/06] = I watched SKYHIGH [crush ko si Warren Peace] then PopJam. Ay TM Revolution... I love you. I swear.

SUNDAY MORNING - AFTERNOON [3/12/06] = I went to the mall then Nechy bought my Grad. shoes and I had my pic taken for the pass and Jap. ^_^

Here's the thing... ngayon, nageedit ako ng indiv. Breakfast @ Tiffany's pic ko so ayun... nakakaloko ng konti lang. Ah... eto pa. Deym. I have a quick way to get to You[You-san] but.... *BLLLLUUUUSSSSSHHHHHH* I'm shy! TEEEHHHEEEEEE!!!! Nakakahiya pero oo... nahihiya tlga ako. I don't know what to say to him oh brother... "Hi You, I'm Kimi... er- we have the same name." Oh my gawd... that sucked. @_@

Oh deym... maaga na naman bukas. Puro pro&recessional na... lakad, pasok, tayo, kanta, upo, respond-respond, tayo, akyat stage, bow, baba, upo, tayo, kanta, sigawan, lakad... Congrats batch '05-'06! THE END!

ONE WEEK TO GO! ONE WEEK TO GO! AWRK! AWRK! ONE WEEK TO GO! AWRK!

2 Panalo, 2 Talo

2006-03-02T16:53:00.000-08:00

Too bad na yung 2 talo e gusto kong school and I was left with the 2 panalo na ayaw kong school. Masama ba pakinggan? O sige. 2 FAVORED schools and 2 er-... LEARN-TO-LOVE ones. Masakit. Oo. Pero kung dun ako sa talagang pupuntahan ko, malayo ako sa dati kong mga kaibigan -- well and good, actually. Medyo, ayoko kasing sumama pa sa growth nila. Nagkakalabuan na so bakit hindi ituloy-tuloy na lang. Except for this certain someone who wants to hold on to the friendship. Thank you if you continue to hold, thank you na rin siguro if you do not. Aaminin ko, buong First Qrt, ndi ako nagseryoso, ang saklap syempre kasi hawa yung EExams dun di ba? Since hindi ako nag aral pero pumasa sa 2 at natalo sa 2, e mukhang may utak naman pala talaga ako. Summer nagbasa ako, may review classes pa pero wala sa puso e. Pano ka kaya kikilos kung wala sa puso ang ginagawa mo di ba?

Ang tanong: Masaya na ba ako ng ganito?
Sagot: Kontento, dahil walang choice, pero hindi ako masaya. Learning to love something is the one thing I have never mastered. Honestly, dahil hindi ako mapagpanggap, hindi ko kayang gamitin ang utak para turuan ang puso. I cannot say kung gaano ko katagal mapapalitan ang ganitong feeling toward the school I'm gonna enter pero oo nga naman, nung pumasok ako sa school ko ngayon, hindi naman ako ang pumili di ba? Kinder lang ako noon e. Tapos nung Frosh year ko, dapat lilipat ako - incoming Sophie. Oh? Di ba? Kung yung ganun, with haste, nagagawa ko, pano pa kaya ito? Kung hindi ko talaga magugustuhan, madaling lumipat. Swear. Sabagay, meron ngang iba... dahil hindi kaya [financial, mental, physical or emotional], lumilipat sa ibang school di ba?

"Its not the school, its what you become after the whole high school and college level."
> ang masasabi ko dyan sa nakakarinding yan ay, BOO! Tama, sige, oo... tama yang line na yan. Pero wait lang. Magagawa mo kaya ang makakaya mo [with full potential et.al.] kung hindi mo gusto yung kinagagalawan mo araw araw araw araw araw? *sigh* I may be rambling here right now, well maybe for you but for me, I'm... I don't think I will enjoy. But I don't get it...God, Father in Heaven, My Lord, WHY?

Someone... help me through this? Medyo di nyo siguro halata pero dinadamdam ko talaga. Nag aral ako, hindi naman ako bobo, bakit hindi ko pinasa? Maraming dahilan di ba? Pero pu***** *** bakit ako?

Pwedeng Mga Sagot:
> ilayo ka sa.... para wala nang.... at magpalawak ng friends.
> kasi hindi mo alam yung truth about dun sa papasukan mo.
> di ba Sag ka? Oh... konek da dats. [ito ang pinakaLAME, swear.]
> mali ang iniisip mo... mageenjoy ka. [di yan sagot, direct hypothesis na yan.]
> madaming bago dun.
> dun ka titino.
> kasi alam mo naman na mahirap talagang pumasok dun kay Manong Obli.
>ika nga ni papa "di ka bagay sa school ko noon." at sabi nya pa "mageenjoy ka sa magiging school mo."

*bummer* habol ko naman kasi independence. I don't think... I really don't... dun sa school na un makukuha ko un. Or maybe so oo. Or baka too much ang pressure sa ibang school... ay pucha. I need an answer. I need the answers! Hindi ko kayang magpabanjing banjing lang d2! Well the school where I'm headed to gave me the course I wanted, BS Chem. So... ba't nga ba ako nagrereklamo? Sa isang school Pharma art BioChem [WTHELL WAS I THINKING!!!???!?!?] tapos sa isa BS Psych [na inayawan ko na...] at sa isa BS Chem din [pero paswertehan na lang dun e... alam nyo naman un, di ba Seniors?]

So ayan... kahit na last day ngayon ng academic year ng Seniors, instead na masaya ako medyo lugmo. Kasi nga naman.... haaaaay. Payabangan na 'to pero mayabang talaga ako. Hindi ko gustong nagshishift, di ko din gustong nagpapakahirap para lang makalipat sa ibang 'branch' ng school na pinasukan. Kaya hindi ako kumuha dun sa sure ako na ipapasa ko. Call me stupid, moronic, pathetic [subukan mo lang ang magtutuos tayo.], pero pag gusto ko, gusto. Pag ayaw, ayaw. Gee, so I tested myself pala talaga ne? Konting aral lang siguro un... haaaay naku, si Kimi talaga. 0=)

PGH, here I come! Magkikita din tayo. Hindi mo ako maiiwasan!

Putra... anodaw?!

2006-02-24T18:25:00.000-08:00

Ayan... kakatapos ko lang mag aral sa Filipino at Social Ethics... then my conscience started asking questions. And here's my answer, "anongpinagtatatanungmo?! inaral ko ba yan?!!!" too deym bad my inner self is more smart than the outer - tsktsk.shame on Kimi for this one.

Ahh, my grandfather, Ret. Col. Agapito B. Heredia, Sr. died last Wednesday. He died peacefully and I am happy for that. Lolo, I wish you're happy and relaxed now. Away from all the stress, saddness and pain you have been feeling here on earth. May you be with Lola Bing and Auntie Weni now, also with your friends and other people you cared for and loved. Lord God, take him freely into your kingdom. Amen.

*if you are reading this, please pause for a moment of silence, it would much appreciated by me and my whole family.*

Ok... now where was I? Oh yes. HINDI KO NA ALAM KUNG PANO AKO MAG AARAL. mukha kasing madali pero dude... nasusuka na ko hehe. Isipin nyo, rushed lahat sa Senior year - FIRST TO FOURTH QUARTER MAGMAMADALI KA SA LAHAT. Kahit na nga matutulog ka na e, nagmamadali ka para lang makahiga sa kama ng about 2-3 sec. earlier para makatulog ka din ng 2-3 sec. after 7 minutes preparation for the brain to tell the eyes to shut and the body to rest.

CHILLAX MUNA KO... putra...

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture.From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

Oi... ndi ko dinaya yan... oh well, ooooohhh sugoi ne!!! XD

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative.You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

You Are a Henna Gaijin!

You're not Japanese, but you wish you were!You can use chopsticks with your eyes closed, and you've memorized hundreds of Kanji.You even answer your phone "moshi moshi."While the number of anime videos you've seen is way higher than the number of dates you've been on, there's hope.Play the sexy, mysterous gaijin, and you'll have plenty of Japanese meat.

What's" Your Japanese Subculture?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.
Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Yan na lang muna... aaral na ulit ako. wait! HARAHETA!!! [gomen nasai... ehem...] ONAKA GA SUKIMASHITA!!!!!! Jaa matta! XD

Goodbye, my dearest Juniors.

2006-02-17T19:36:00.000-08:00

In this lifetime, I never thought that I would be this affected to leave my Junior siblings behind. My dears, you will lead a fruitful life - not only because I was there to guide you, kidding aside - but also for the greatness of your passion that you possess. I offer this entry to the JUNIORS OF PAULAROID and to my Frosh, Sophies and Head Shooter, Mr. Alfred Martin A. Dimalanta [kala nyo... nakita ko yang full name nya noh!] XD

I have always thought that when I become a Senior, I'll be fighting gut-to-gut with the Juniors because it is a natural fact of life that the Seniors bicker with the Juniors -- I WAS SO DAMN WRONG. I'M ACTUALLY EATING MY CRAP RIGHT NOW. [take this literally and I'll kill you.]

I do not wish to mention names because I might forget to mention someone so my lovely apo[s] and to my other Junior, Sophies, Frosh friends -- I WILL RETURN WHEN YOU HAVE FOOD SA CLUB. Bwisit pala. HEHEHEHEHHEHEHE!!!!

Galingan nyo! Don't be fooled by the easy trippin' of 1st and 2nd QRT sa Senior Yr. Pero don't succumb to the thought of those other ppl that when you're a Senior, ALA KANG TULOG --- THAT, MY FRIENDS, IS A FALLACY.

Senior students who do not get sleep choose not to get some sleep. You may lack sleep but you still and will sleep. I highly suggest that you don not go beyond 12am. You have to manage your time wisely. ^_^ Remember that.

Next year, whatever happens, I will always be one SMS away, about one click-YM away, exactly 30mins-1hr away from school, and when you really need me, go straight to Taft. I'll be there.

AICEL!!! ANG MAKULIT NA SI KIMI AY DARAGUNDONG NA NAMAN SA BUHAY MO NYAHAHAHHA!!!!

Goodbye JUNIORS. Say hello to SENIORS for me next year.

I love you.

~Ate Kimi/ Lolo~

If I sleep now, will I wake up happy tomorrow?

2006-02-16T21:41:00.000-08:00

...di nga? have you ever asked that same question before? Or am I really just so absorbed with my boring life right now? Heeellluuuvvvvaaaa life! I WANNA MARCH! NOW! NOW!!! [ginawa nga talaga... craulo.craulo.]

MGA NANGYARI/NANGYAYARI/MANGYAYARI SA BUHAY NI KIMI:

1) Natanggap ang DLSU letter.
2) Nawalan ng tiwala sa ilang tao.
3) Nagsasawa na kay Okarin.
4) Natapos ang Psych Analysis, Bio at masend ang timeline na ginawang lifeline ni Nobra.
5) Natapos ang Eco Graph, Recomm and Comments.
6) Nasubmit ng maaga [sobrang aga] ang Scrapbook sa Ethics.
7) Tapos na ang Debate - I admit, I am sad.
8) Nagkaroon ng in-depth analysis sa IQ ko.
9) Nalaman ko na mahal ko si You... but since love is not a feeling, cathecating lang ako sa kanya.
10) I am not intelligent - I'm smart.
11) Natulog ako ng maaga at masnastrain pa mata ko. Hmmm, must read more medical books. Learn! Learn!
12) I have to restudy Nihongo 1-3.

uH, So much for numbers and formats... I miss Chem. Best part of my life right now is having to finish the Math Arena! XD Thank you Lord! As of now, I really dunno what to do sa aking buhay. [Kadiri konyo.] Aaaaahhhh, sa next next Sabado SI DADDY HYDE!!! Toosan! Galingan mo sa Season's Call ha! I'll be watching you. :) Have I mentioned that I wanna marry You Kurosaki? Hay. I am soooo sorry Gackt. I want him. :D

Here: I don't want to get angry or frustrated with you anymore. Dinadaan na lang kita sa tawa. Pero dude, pare, you're way out of my line already. I don't want to be near you. I just want you out of my life, ok? Well... truth is, I'll miss you. But when you're near, I GET HURT. When you're far, I FEEL PAIN, but I'm not THAT hurt. *sigh* Damn you. Damn you not too. I hate you. But I actually care. I don't love you. ^_^ I care.

Bachelor of Science in Chemistry

2006-02-11T16:02:00.000-08:00

Maganda ba pakinggan? Masaya ba basahin? Nakakaantig ba ng damdamin? Maipagmamayabang ba? Para sa akin... OO NAMAN! ANAK NG LUPA! PINAGHIRAPAN KO DIN YAN A! [tawa mag-isa] [ops, may bangag dito... meron, oo.]

Today, I had a blast in school - its Saturday today, mind you. I helped and will help finish the Math area for the opening of the Big Exhibit this coming Feb. 15. I dunno why, but the simple thank you and the simple gesture of people appreciating your work makes me feel pure bliss. I like the feeling I get when I know I've helped a person. I love the satisfaction I achieve when I see their happy, peaceful faces. I take pride of the deeds I perfectly made after a day's work. I love being called, I love being asked, I love being of importance. I'm not even tired after working hard. *smiles* I guess my calling as a doctor is a perfect profession.

But how about J-opera/J-pop [inspired or take the literal sense of the culture] as a career? Har de har. Sounds crazy, but I ma actually have my profession and career balanced... all at the same time! But since profession is more demanding, I will have to be a certified doctor first before I produce my composed songs and gather the band for recording.

I am wearing a grin right now because I know what I want in life. But this grin switched to a pursed lips because I do not hold the fate that would lead me to where and what I want. Goddamnit. If only...

Quote for the Day: "Kimi wa motto hanareta, motto tojita o sawareta."

[The more distant you are, the more I feel you near to me.]

SENIORITIS

2006-02-03T01:17:00.000-08:00

Your power is: Super Strength

Explanation: Your gift is rather self

exlainig. But to clear things up, you have

been given a power that makes you extremly

strong. This is of course speaking in

pyshical terms. When doing good deeds the

power could be used as helping people in e.g.

fights or those under a fallen building etc.

For bad purposes the power could simply

kill/beat anyone until the gifted gets his

way.
You are however as a person on the good side.

You are the leader type and have a tendancy

to look at the whole picture rather than

details. That could make you come off as

inconsiderate, but that's far from the truth.

You can be impulsive and aggressive but you

mean no harm with it. Sometimes it can even

save you. If you were to be in a group with

others who have super powers you would be

focusing more on them and the situation

rather than yourself. So to even it out, you

can be egotistical at times, but it's because

you ignore your needs every once in a while.

You are responsible and brave but could still

be seen as reckless.

Negative aspects: Since you focus on the

team/family/group of friends you could start

thinking that they don't care about you since

they don't seem to look after you the way you

do to them. Also you could intentionally

endanger yourself (even in everyday life)

when doing descicions without thinking it

through that much. But a leader with more

sense of responsibility does not however come

off as reckless, but logical.

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You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You

are not really the stereotypical hero, but

you do fight for good. Just in your own way.

For you, it is most certainly okay to kill an

evil person, if it is for justice and peace.

You also don't belive in mourning all the

time and think that once you've hit a bad

stage in life you just have to get up again.

It's pointless to concentrate on emotional

pain and better to just get on with

everything. You also are a down to earth type

of person and think before you act. Impulsive

people may annoy you somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.

This will gratify some people and astonish

the rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

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Your match is Alister!!

In trying to describe this man,
"protector" is the best term you
can think of. His physique is noteably sleek.
He has long, straight, sand-colored hair. His
round eyes are the color of fallen autum
leaves.

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Leather Lesbian
"She is the warrior, always fighting and
challanging barriers".

What Gay Culture Archetype are you?
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u r a destiny angel u follow ur destiny so that all

ur dreams will come true becauseu can tell

that u will be great

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You, my friend, are a Jrock guru. You know just

about all there is to know about Jrock, and

get pissed off when other people get things

blatantly wrong. You basically win at life.

Haha.

How much do you know about Jrock?
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You're Hyper Para Beat! Unable to stand still for

30 seconds, you need something to dance to

while still getting your rock kick. You think

para para dance is sexy and refreshing. Your

favorite bands probably include Gackt Job,

Dasein and of course Psycho le Cemu.

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Hey, guess what? You're the uber kawaii Angel Hyde!

That's because your so sweet!

What Hyde are you?
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you love them both. me too.

are you obsessed with gackt or hyde?
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For my Toosan...

2006-01-29T23:35:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! TANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!!

HIDETO TAKARAI!

To the most beautiful man I have ever seen, hopefully a chance to know too...

LONG LIVE YOU SEXY THANG! LONG LIVE L'ARC~EN~CIEL!

I love you!!!

Ohhhh Booooyyyy

2006-01-28T17:37:00.000-08:00

Choose a band/musician and answer only in song titles by them:

L'arc en ciel

Are you male or female? And SHE Said
How old are you? Time Goes On
Describe yourself: Niji
Describe your family: Jujoushi
How do some people feel about you? Hitomi no Juunin
When you see your enemy, what's your initial reaction? Pieces
How do you feel about yourself? Feelin' Fine
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: Forbidden Lover
Describe your views on significant others and crushes: Driver's High
Describe what you want: Lover Boy
Describe how you live: New World
Describe how you love: Honey
Describe love: Love Flies
Share a few words of wisdom: Spirit Dreams Inside

[e2, sariling hirit, sapagkat ako'y makulit]
What can you say about the migration of doctors? LIES AND TRUTH

Camui M.S. Gackt - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!

2006-01-27T20:44:00.000-08:00

OMG OMG OMG! For crying out loud! CAMUI GACKT - SAN! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!

Ladies and Gentlemen, I AM HURT.

Gackt-san, why does REDEMPTION sound like a remade DOOMSDAY and LONGING sounds like an alternative of OASIS...?!!!

I'm very displeased. I had 1 hour of rushed time... taking pains to look for those songs then... then... deym! I should have just listened to Doomsday and Oasis.

Oh Gackt-san. What happened to your musical ingenuity... I am hurt.

...and I can't take my eyes off of YOU.

2006-01-25T15:58:00.000-08:00

DEYM! one whole er-... 3 whole weeks of YOU on my mind. [Uhm, sorry. Not you as in you(ikaw). Kapala ah.] Kurusaki You. Ehehehe. Ah yes well er- uh, what happened? FAIR DAY 1&2 WERE AWESOME!!! FAIR DAY 3 WAS SH*TTY! A lot happened... don't wanna talk about it, though. Parang sayang sa lakas... nawalan na pala ng energy.

I NEED A NEW WALLPAPER!!! No offense, Gackt-san. I just need [badly] a new one. Gimme!!!

School is not so fun for me now. This morning, I woke up with my left eye closed and my right eye panicking on my left eye's behalf. STRESSED AGAIN. I feel that my 100 grade will rise up to a 150+... please, no. Remind me to have a laser by age 26-30. Sux. In short, I didn't go to school... tsk. I wanted to hear Bo Sanchez talk. I need inspiration. Hmm, actually I just wanna wear my heels, toga then march - sing, sit and stand, go up on stage, get my diploma, sing "Paulinian Mission Song" or "Paulinian Hymn" for the *choke sniff* last time, clap and congratulate my batchmates then... then... leave. For good.

What the hell am I saying?! Well, I do. I mean, I wanna leave and all, for chrissake... (Holden syndrome, sorry.) See here, I AM TIRED. I AM VERY, VERY TIRED. Come January 4, I came back to school with a "fed up" heart. I love studying and learning and laughing with friends - and annoying, crying, fighting with, for or bec. of them too, don't get me wrong. But see, I am really fed up. It's like having to go to school with your heavy feet anchored to the ground of your bedroom; or wearing your uniform not because you know its neatly pressed and clean, but because its a requirement and you must give due respect. See my point? NO FUN ANYMORE. I just run through the day with the mental note, "Yeah, one hour and this [any subject] is over. Just... just grab that book/ntbk or paper and take that quiz. Then its over. Just don't ask anymore." Hoooboi. What will become of me after this month? I wish February will be quite... interesting. Every year I think I'm like this - last year, because of this b*tch in the room, I wanted to end the school year come December. Way back Frosh year, I wanted to end the whole schoolyear come July [worse, isn't it?]. Sophie year? Uhm... wanted to end the whole year about 2nd qrt of the schoolyear. [at least nagimprove]. And now, maybe bec. of the thought that this will be the last time I can mingle with my batchmates, my boredome reached the final qrt - point is, it still reached me. I thought I'd be able to finish my HS schoolyear with a peaceful reconciliation with myself and my peers. Like, I don't have to rush myself into leaving... just like GR VII graduation... I was a happy child. I graduated happy. I believe I am really maturing. That, I do not need a happy though or a happy reason during or even before a happy event in life. Well yeah, my debut even... though I should be thinking of the people who came, I remember the people who didn't come better than those who did. I still feel resentful but I've learned my lesson - choose your friends wisely. I can't say I enjoyed... I can't say I was heart-broken too! I'm just glad that a lot of people told me that my party was enjoyable and beautiful - that I was beautiful. Too bad YOU didn't make it. Hehehe... owel, alanangnochoice! Ah ano ba itong pinagsasasabi ko. Pero totoo naman... inner thoughts na pala. Ah basta, pagkatapos ko sa HS, hahanapin ko sarili ko - kung ano talaga ang kakayahan ni Kimi. Ok lang kung may mga kaibigan pa ako na susulput-sulpot sa tabi-tabi pero kung wala e sanay naman akong ganun keo. I will have a beautiful future. I feel and see it now. [Dream mode...end dream mode] I am an artist - madaming pwedeng gawin. Linguist pa! Ang dami talaga magagawa!!! Hmmm... how does a doctor - popstar sound? or, or, Forensics - band vox? ANG DAMI TALAGA! Pero pasensya na inner Kimi, hinding-hindi mo ako mapapasang-ayon sa isang desk job. HINDI KO KAYA!!!!!! Kelan sa'kin gumagalaw, deym! Hora! Un na un! Retouch pa ako ng Ethics project tas Math quiz - review. Byejaa!!!

Tell Me, Somebody Tell Me

2006-01-19T12:20:00.000-08:00

Kanta ni Hide yan - HIDE ndi HYDE - ay nakakalungkot. Naalala ko na namatay nga pala [nagpakamatay] siya. *sigh* Great loss, truly. Ah yes. Now, right now, ima... [gs2 pa] nasa Multi. Med. Center ako ng school ngayon. Galing. Lam niyo ba [or lam mo ba], after 4 years sa HS Bldg, ngayon lang ako nakapunta dito na free yung kilos ko - I mean, I have the freedom to do my own thing. For fun, baga. Ndi ung research/ debate rel. papers ung gnwa ko. Text language na kasi ang sakit sa fingers ng keyboard dito hehehehe. Kasama ko dito si My-kodomo [ndi, ndi... ndi my kodomo, its MY-kodomo] nagpapakasasa kami sa blog at quizilla. Hmm... punta akong tickles ngayon. Dude, boring tlga.. 1:30pm pa kami magseset up ng booth eh heheh.. And I would like to have a new wallpaper for Illuminati, thank you very much. [Siyempre bagsak ko na naman e Hyde/Gackt.. buhay tlga oo.]

PROMOTION:

HIMIGsikan 35-25 SPCP SCHOOL FAIR (January 20-22, 2006)

We have exciting rides, variety of booths, exotic food,

band performance from: (SUGARFREE, SPONGE COLA, THOR)

SEE YOU THERE! XD

YOU

2006-01-17T19:49:00.000-08:00

"Something's telling me it might be YOU..."
"YOU [is] are my song playing so softly in my heart."
"YOU asked me if I love YOU, and I choked on my relpy."
"I just don't love YOU no more."
"God must've spent a little more time on YOU."
"Cause YOU left me just when I needed YOU most."
"It's all... it's all because of YOU."
"Only YOU."
"Just like me, they long to be close to YOU."
"I'll go wherever YOU will go!"
"I'll never get over YOU getting over me."
"I'm falling even more in love with YOU!"
"So now I come to YOU with open arms."
"My dreams came true, when I found YOU."
"Cause I'm dreaming of YOU tonight."
"Why [does] do YOU stare at the sky, with you're blurry eyes?"
"You're still YOU."
"Like I wanna be, I've gotta be chained to YOU."
"Happy birthday to YOU."
"Let me walk and fly away with YOU into the night."
"YOU, YOU [lights]light up my life."
"Loving YOU is easy cause you're beautiful."
"YOU [looks] look wonderful tonight."
"I turn to YOU."
"YOU belong to me."
"Promise YOU, for YOU I will."

Game! Drop a line if YOU can add more. ^_^ YOU-SAN! AISHITE IMASU! [Ooops... sorry Jinjin. Hehehe]

Frbiddn Fckin' Lver

2006-01-14T00:38:00.000-08:00

THE GOOD: Debate - emma gettin' better. DLSU - it will take more internalizing... I dunno why. ADMU - your loss, not mine. UST - nope, sorry, don't like. UP - ala nang yabangan... bigay niyo na lang. Ran - mehn... shut up. You should've talked or "discuss" "this" with me FIRST before Forbs. Catcher in the Rye - over and done. YOU - I love YOU. XD Other subjects - oks. Friends - kung anuman. Enemies - kung anuman. Teachers - i will miss you all. Batchmates - congrats sa ating lahat. As a Frosh [once again] - Waw. Bagong school. Hi, I'm Kimi. HIMIGsikan 25-35 - I'm excited to have my last spcp fair *naiiyak na pala* Kian - kay ganda mo.

HIGHLIGHT for "THE GOOD": ANG GANDA NG FULL MOON [kagabi] NG FRIDAY THE 13TH!!! At long friggin' last! Nakuhanan ko din siya! Thanks, Kian.Keesh.

THE BAD: It is as simple as this. Sige, pagsalitaan mo pa ng masama si Ran. Ala naman ako masyadong pake. Pero pag lumagpas ka ng linya, tayo ang magtutuos. Pinapalampas ko na lang mga nakasulat sa blog mo at mga naririnig ko sa'yo sa paaralan pero sasabihin ko sa'yo - hindi siya yung biased. AKO. Bakit? Dahil pag yong topic na yun ang pinag uusapan namin, puro masakit lang ang nashashare ko. Pero pag tungkol sa'yo as a whole, magaganda at masasayang memories lang ang nasasabi ko. Natutuwa pa nga siya dahil kahit papaano, ako, natutuwa kasama ka. E ikaw? Kelan mo ba 'ko nakita bilang ako. Putres yan. Sa lahat ng sinabi ni Ran sakin, inaaway ko siya. Pinagtatanggol kita tapos yan pa ibabalik mo sa kanya? Buwitre ka. Paumanhin sa'yo. Mukhang hindi siya yung nagkamali sa pagiintindi sa'yo - AKO ANG NAGKAMALI. Ba't nga naman ba kita iniintindi pa e hindi mo naman ako inintindi di ba? Dito na magtatapos ang lahat. Sobra ka makapambuska ah. Mahal man kita noon, mas mahal ko si Ran sa'yo.

DLSU.UP.ATENEO.UST.

2006-01-12T02:28:00.000-08:00

Utang na loob. Naalala ko yung sinabi sakin ni Sir Paz [Gen.Sci prof., Frosh Year] "Kimi, hwag mo iyakan ang walang kakwenta-kwentang bagay." Why so? Well, he said that because I failed his 3rd QRT finals... a glaring 62/100... my perfect profile for Science went to hell - literally. Now, I remember his "solemn" words because I, again, cried over spilled milk. My friends, I am an 80% De La Salle University student.

I... well, honestly, I was not prepared to go to La Salle. I passed, sure thing [that's the 100%...] but my heart... it screams "Ito na yun e. Kimi, ito na talaga yun." I do not hate La Salle, please bear that in mind. I was just not prepared to have La Salle as my new 2nd home. ^_^ I do not know what's stopping me. I do not know what's pushing me either. All I know is that I am in love with the course I chose and passed. And since that passed passion came from La Salle first, then La Salle it shall be.

Ayan... sa mga naiintriga kung anong school ko, e2... mga chismosa keo. Hehehe! E2 na. LA SALLE na nga. 80% sure na talaga ako dyan.

To my fellow batchmates: GOODBYE and SEE YOU AROUND! ^__^ Kanya-kanyang buhay na ito! Paghusayan natin!

Karma knocked on my door so here... "It doesn't matter what school you're at or you're going into. It's what you're gonna be after the "school" part takes its bow."

Momentus Day - Over and Out

2005-12-05T19:50:00.000-08:00

Though I am in the new chapter of my life, this Kimi did not [and will not] change the inner glow I have from inside. And yes, I will always stay true with regard to "ILLUMINATI SANCTUS" whether or not I have my doubts, groans, idles or guilt with this mission. ANG SAYA NG PARTY KO. For those who didn't attend [without valid reason, and not even informing me beforehand or apologizing for it] YOU MISSED A LOT.

And well, you'll miss me. You have just proven that you are a friend - but not a true one. At kung natatamaan ka, ikaw na lang un. Kung ndi ka naman dapat matamaan pero natatamaan ka, ANU BA. E kung ndi ka natatamaan pero dapat matamaan ka, PAGKATAO MO NA YUN. AT LEAST NGAYON ALAM KO KUNG ANO KA.

Ahh, my beautiful hair, makeup and gown - this is the ONE TIME BIG TIME that I can say, "I love make up and hair chemicals." THE CHOCO FOUNTAIN! My goodness! Every heart's desire! THE DECORS! totemo sugoi!!! The preparations, the tensions, the mood swings, tears, sweat and blood [meron ba? ah oo...] and the fatigue! THEY WERE ALL WORTHIT!

THANKS BE TO GOD and to my friends...

PEACE BE WITH YOU!

Momentus Day - Over and Out

2005-12-05T02:55:00.000-08:00

TOOSAN

2005-11-28T20:10:00.000-08:00

5 days, 133 hours, 7980 minutes and 478800 seconds

2005-11-27T21:12:00.000-08:00

That's the count for something momentus in my life. Valuable, Serene and life-changing? I do not think so. Not valuable because any woman can reach to that point in their life. Serene? Damn right wrong - its quite the opposite, actually. Life changing... perhaps. What kept me bust these past few days [that seems like 1 hour = 1 year] Let's see. Ah. I have been to hell and back [INFERNO], I drained my brain because of A&D, I lost a lot of money [Donations here, Collections there, Projects here, Pay-back there...], I failed a lot of quizzes ["Hala. First time! Bawi ka ha, Kimi?" - I will have my revenge.], crazy people showing their true colors, rushing for a milestone...basically that is it.

Now what? Ah. I watched H.P. 4 a while ago. Great guns! RUPERT GRINT! You are so cute! *smile* I missed you! *kees* And a tomorrow, the fam's gonna have a dance parteh at noon! Yebah!

jAa!

Personally, I do not have a Personality Disorder.XD

2005-11-09T19:22:00.000-08:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

"God told me...

2005-11-06T19:58:00.000-08:00

that being a human being isn't too difficult. He said that I must endure the purest of pain, the epitome of bliss and the destruction due to chaos. [no pun intended] So why am I still alive? Perhaps I am stronger than I thought, weaker than I might have been. More precious than how other people see me. Yes, maybe so... all is true in fallacy's eyes. Truly, I love the imperfections of a perfect person."
2 days left for this "sembreak". I have spent 4 days for my coming of age preparations while 4 days were spent for rest --but I keep on straining my eyes so I guess... I stink at resting hehe. Oooh. No offense to Camui-san but I'll [or I already did] change the wallpaper to HYDE-toosan again. See, I saw this kakkoi wallpaper of HYDE and hn, mochiron... I just.had.to.put.it.here. What am I doing now? Still for the preparations. I had 2 wonderful days of roaming different malls with my jrock look [clothes,hair&makeup]. I think I like the attention hmmm, and yes, the adrenalin rush I get when I think of every step on mall-floor as steps I make on stage! Man! That kills me! I love performing! But professionalism comes first -- passion has its way through my veins. Med. first then album. Actually, it can be Med+album. Or, or, album then Med? No... I'll be too old to be a doctor by then. Souka... hmm. Jaa matta!

I am VERY Confused.

2005-10-23T13:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went to a lot of places. I went to er-... yah. Then to hmmm, yes. Afterwards, the urg-... okay. Seriously, I cannot tell you. ^__^

Kidding aside, may I ask you -- [whoever is reading this] have you
ever felt really confused before? As in, your mind knows the answer but your
heart just wouldn't justify? Or Vice versa, perhaps. Your heart tells you the
right thing to do but your mind wants to follow itself? Di ba't kay hirap ng
ganoon?
O hala! Labo talaga!!! Gulung-gulo na ako e... hay naku. Ay Ranners, get well soon nee? *smile* Ashii! Hehehe! *kees* Ah yes, where was I... ah! ANG GULU-GULO TALAGA!!!! Kasi... kasi... because... kara... *sighsighsmile* Yeah. I've learned my lesson. *smilesmile*
Ganito lang yun -- when you love someone, do not let other people find out first. Make him/her know what you feel first before others. Why? Kasi katulad ngayon.... may mga taong nagmimisinterpret ng mga sinasabi ng isang tao na nagsabi ng katotohanan. Ano tuloy napala nung taong yun? *sigh* Do not ask me for you might suffer as how I suffer now. NYAHAHA! Gusto po ganun. Checheng! Ah bsta ganun! Just... just heed my advice. Actually, do not jump to conclusions too. You migh always end up wrong hehehe. If you think that, that person ai's you, wait longer for proof. Wag maging tanga (seryoso). Saya... salamat! *smile*
Wait! Aijin! Mite!! CHAMCHA+RAN=CHARAN! *grin*

Watashi wa Oji desu.

2005-10-07T19:52:00.000-07:00

"Now I gotta explain that I'm loving and feeding you no more.
Everything keeps sticking around since I came back off tour.
So tell me why do I have to explain myself baby,
Cuz girl you gotta admit that there's nothing more for me to say...
Ooh yeay
I don't love youNo More
Come I'll show myself to the door
I don't love you
Cuz I don't love you no more."
-Craig David (I Don't Love You (No More))
"Rain outside my window pouring down.

What now? You're gone. My fault... I'm sorry.

Feelin' like a fool cause I let you down.

Now it's, too late, to turn it around.

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry...

I guess this time it really is goodbye.

you made it clear when you said--

' I just don't love you no more.' "

-Craig David (Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry))

Special a-choo Day 4

2005-10-07T19:25:00.000-07:00

DE LA SALLE UNIVERSITY

Ang hirap ng entrance exam ---pabida ang La Salle

Nagkasakit ako

Hanggang ngayon may sakit ako - 1 linggo na

Maganda ang silid M419

Malamig sa loob

Nagkulang ang tissue ko kakasainga

Daming tao

Madali ang pila

Yes, it is true: MAHIRAP ANG PARKING.

Special Day 3

2005-09-18T18:37:00.000-07:00

UNIBERSIDAD ng STO. TOMAS

Nabulabog ako sa pila - pagkababa ng kotse, nakapasok na ako sa loob...

kay bilis!

Masarap mag-ikot sa loob at mawala.

Masaya tumayo sa labas ng silid dahil tatagaktak ang pawis mo.

Malamig sa loob ng silid - magdala ng jacket!

Okay ang proctors - mga dalaga sila.

Mabagal ang takbo ng oras - in short, take your time.

Waw. 3 oras pa lang akong natutulog sa araw na ito. Mehgesh!

Special Day 2

2005-09-18T02:13:00.000-07:00

ATENEO de MANILA UNIVERSITY

The exam was good.

The waiting line was not.

I liked the toilet - full length mirror.

Proctors were cool.

Math was *condemn me*

I felt very gloomy - NO SCIENCE.

All in all...

"DELIBERATE SPEED, MAJESTIC INSTANCY!"

Oh ha! Loko.

Oh btw, I have AWAKE (L`arc~en~Ciel) album and...
LAST QUARTZ ~Kagen no Tsuki~ movie

[H]usgado [K]albaryo [I]log

2005-09-10T16:35:00.000-07:00

MARAMING SALAMAT SA LAHAT NG TUMULONG AT SA NAGPATULONG!

GUMANDA ANG HULING TAON KO NA MAG[O]utbound

[E]xperience DAHIL SA INYO!

Ang ganda ng mga tanawin! Kay sarap makipagsapalaran sa mga bato at tubig na maputik! Napakasaya makipaghalikan at umpugan sa mga stalactites sa loob ng HUSGADO,

Matamis ang ibinunga ng pag-akyat at pagbaba ko sa KALBARYO [Banahaw Rockies],

at siyempre, ang walang-humpay na pagbibilang sa 627 steps pababa ng ilog... ay siyempre, 627 steps din paakyat ng ilog, oo nga pla... pati ang pagtangay saakin ng alon, maraming salamat din!

Maraming salamat Kuya Bien [Ate Venus], Ate Anne at Kuya Jan [kahit mangiindyan at pabida ka joke kuya!] sa masayang huling taong pagkakasama natin! *naiyak na pala*

Maraming salamat sa lahat ng tumulong sa akin sa oras ng pangangailangan at sa lahat ng mga nagpatulong (just proves na hindi kayo pabida)!

Ay kay saya talaga! Nakahanap din ako ng isang buong araw na maaari kong palawakin ang aking kultura, spiritual, mental at pisikal na pangangailangan at siyempre, makipaghalubilo sa aking grad. mates!

At ngayon, ako'y magpapahinga na muli sapagkat hindi ko maigalaw ang aking katawan!

Maraming, maraming salamat Panginoon!

Kimi no Tameni Dekiru Koto...

2005-09-02T19:05:00.000-07:00

[WALLPAPER] It is a "SOLEIL" -by Gackt- inspired wallpaper. I will use this until I get distracted by the peaceful colors. Ehehehehe.

STOP READING MY BLOG, MAMA. I'LL TELL YOU STUFF THAT I WOULD WANT YOU TO KNOW. YOU DON'T NEED TO LOOK HERE JUST TO UNDERSTAND YOUR TEENAGE DAUGHTER BETTER. STOP READING MY BLOG, MUM.>_<

Once and for all, let me get this straight.

1>I DO NOT HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU.
2>I HAVE NOT FALLEN IN-LOVE WITH YOU.
3>YOU'RE NOT EVEN MY PROSPECT.
4>I'M NOT TRYING TO IGNORE YOU.
5>I'M NOT TAKING YOU FOR GRANTED.
6>I DON'T HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF TO YOU.
7>I HAVE NO INTENTIONS OF HURTING YOU.
8>I WAS SERIOUS ABOUT THE WHOLE THING.
9>YOU'RE MY FRIEND - A GOOD FRIEND. A TRUE FRIEND.
10>I LOVE YOU.

You might not understand the LOVE I am pertaining to.

I love you for who you are.

You are my friend.

You are my loved one.

You are you.

So please... don't misunderstand me.

It's okay. But I apologize because of this trouble. Ay, malabo kasi talaga akong magmahal e, hehehe. Pasensya na kung mahirap sabayan ang agos ng aking puso. Malabo ako... malabo. Paumanhin. ^_^

Blood+H2O... H2O+Blood

2005-08-21T19:30:00.000-07:00

I have...

a painful story.

I do not wish to say it here because-

... let's have story-telling-time on the 28th.

But here's a hint:

For a week's cause, I have been drinking blood.

NO... I am NOT being demented or gothic

- like some people overdoing it.

I'm serious.

For a week, I have been drinking my blood

... and water, of course.

I'll tell you the tale when I see you. ^__^

Special Day 1

2005-08-06T23:19:00.000-07:00

Amidst the heavy rain, the uneaten lunch and the tired Kimi, one name stands above all hardships and pains --

UNIBERSIDAD NG PILIPINAS

~madali ang exam~

~hindi nakakatakot ang dating~

~masaya ang ambiance~

~walang dapt ipangamba~

~magdala ng pagkain~

~magdala ng tubig~

~magdala ng sense of humor~

~hwag matataranta~

~kailangan ang Common Size er- Sense~

~IWASANG MAGWALA at MAGYABANG~

~iwasan ang paglait sa iba't-ibang uri ng tao~

~Maykapal lamang ang makatutulong sa iyo ngayon~

Kimi 101

2005-07-22T21:40:00.000-07:00

I'm having a hard time balancing right now. So let me just tell you who Kimi is. The Kimi you know... but you may have misunderstood. (That is unavoidable^_^)

1> Kimi is a girl, but she can be a boy in her own right.
2> Kimi is a good student - a loyalist to her HS school.
3> Kimi does not have a definite barkada - her friends are her friends.
4> Kimi defines friendship as - "a creation that comes and goes." But defines true friendship as, "a creation that comes and stays." And "a spur of light that can stand up for you when you're alone or standing alone."
5> Kimi is a true friend - proven and tested - even if you are untrue to her. That is why she is also a true enemy to the people who really used her up like a ragsponge.
6> No, Kimi cannot pinpoint her true friends. But she has a lot of friends.
7> Kimi knows three languages - one by stand, one by need, one by passion.
8> Kimi loves music and the arts - art is music and music will forever be art.
9> She loves HYDE and Gackt but doesn't treat them as gods - they are human... they can and will die in their right time.
10> Kimi is a Sagitarrian - she'll love you if she loves you, likes you if she likes you, tells you when she dislikes you.
11> Kimi loves her family.
12> Kimi respects her respectable teachers.
13> Kimi loves Chemistry and Psychology.
14> Kimi loves Japan - and everything/one in/on it.
15> Kimi cares for cute things, especially rabbits.

That is it...for now.

Hold My Soul

2005-07-14T19:03:00.000-07:00

Oh wow! UPCAT!!! UPCAT!!! UP!!! UP!!! U-... *cough..cough..cough* UP!!! Sorry... getting carried away here. *grin* Hmmm, Hold My Soul - known by some - is a song I've recently composed and yes, it's inspiring! Especially now that I'm editting the last part nyahaha! I love my life - won't change it for anything else!

PAST FEW DAYS KIMI FELT/THOUGHT: stupid, worthless, stolid [yeeeessss!], perfidious [ay gusto pa!!!], distracted, that I'm not going to be proud of my AnD grades, I love Psych, I love mythology, I got the point in the parallelogram method after 3 consecutive meetings in Physics, Lover doesn't love me, today is Kimi-Zanders' anniv. and we didn't spend it, i still don't know what friendship means, I'm tired of working so hard, I'm getting pissed with ?!@>!@?, I cannot wait to NEVER SEE POP AND DARMA AFTER THIS YEAR, my teachers and our leaders love the Seniors, that I, Kimi, have a 50/50 chance for Iska, and yes, I am 18% in the batch - if you don't get it, don't rack your brain out.

MY INSIGHT/S ABOUT FRIENDSHIP: i'm not the normal teenager who'd get depressed and ride-on the "gothic" mode just because you get indifferent with your friends... well, I'm passed that stage - my my friends, you'd learn it the fast way... because I've always been indifferent to them. Wait, I AM DIFFERENT FROM THEM. hala na, with me nga lang [bakit taglish na?!], hard way talaga e... kasi "expect the unexpected" sila. Maganda ang training sa buhay ng mga taong yun kaya saya ako na barkx...er-, ala palang barkx... saya ako na friends ko sila at sila ay laging fair, not biased, ndi balimbing... andyan paglumapit ka with your problem pero.... tandaan, walang damayan. Kung bali problema mo yan, harapin mo. Andyan sila to support and give you some advice pero no, don't ask for more. Kay sorry Kimi, pagpinagkakampihan ka na, harapin mo sila. "We're here for you... JUST here... ONLY here." Makes me stronger but hey, is that how our friendship goes? Galing pala e noh...I guess now, I've proven it. Friends can be so distant/close and can hate you/love you but they would always be labeled as "FRIENDS." They can accept your weaknesses and strengths, then can cuss at you, they can get jealous but they will always be FRIENDS. I'm not bitter, I'm hurt. E sanay na naman keo sa ganyan di ba, o di hwag nyo pansinin. Chh. Wala na sakin yun ngayon.. oo na, kasalanan ko na ndi ko narealize ng masmaaga na ganun na pala keo. So sorry, didn't notice - preoccupied my own stuff, I'm sure kayo din.

"You think of love as something you don't need right now. You love to flirt..."
> Kimi + flirting = "not known to man". Last thing I would ever do is flirt... right, girls/boys? *grin*

There can be no Love without Trust

2005-07-10T18:02:00.000-07:00

Ah yes... Cupid and Psyche... LOVE and SOUL. *sigh* Ang ganda, sobra. I wish there would be a movie that tackles that Mythological love story... katuwa tlga. Love? Here... all of these are true about me. *smile*

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

June: OUT, July: COMING

2005-06-28T16:34:00.000-07:00

Ahhh, when God closes a door, he opens a window. Very true, in this case, Cardinal Sin died, we don't have classes. How... unlikely, ne? At least I didn't have to excuse myself in not going to school because I was feeling very sick yesterday... tired, disappointed, empty..un, gusto pa.

Thank you, once again, Ranners... you're so understanding! >:D< "You've lost it once, am I correct? It came back to you. What would be the difference if you lost it again and it would return?" Not exact words but that's what he told me! Waaahhh... sorry na. Sorry talaga... ang tanga kasi e.. magwawala na nga lang yun pa. Tsk.. fine! Fine! No blaming! Damnit! Hmm... toycon. Saya magpicture kasama ni Joker ->poison Ivy daw ako naku! Bakit? Pula ba buhok ko? [Don't answer that!] at ni Batman na ayaw magpakiss, yung Chancelor na kamuka ni [nambatoo] na ndi umilaw ang spada, ni ET, ni Vader, ni Predator at o yeah! Naghi ako ke Francis M!!! Hehehe...^_^ Bumili din nga pla ako ng melaware na Jap. inspired... less 10% off grabeh!!! sarap shopping nyahaha!!! Picture galore yun e! saya namankahit papaano pero pramis... may panira ng araw e. Sinasabi na nga ba... umalis na't lahat c chonan, malulungkot din siya. Grabe, ndi ko alam kung kaaawaan ko siya o kamumuhian pero grr...hindi narerealize ng mga kaibigan ko kung gaano mo nasira ang parte ng buhay ko pero sige lang. Wala silang pinapanigan kaya ayokong magopen up sa kanila pero kung nalulungkot ka, hwag mo isa-isahin mga kaibigan ko... you'll never get them wholeheartedly anyway. Putik ka, matapos ang huling taon kong ito, ayoko na makita ang pagmumuka mo - POP.

QUIZ R' US

2005-06-18T15:00:00.000-07:00

Do you end up with Gackt or Hyde? by hideto
LJ Username
Who? HYDE
Where? Under a sheet in the dressing room
When? October 17, 2016
Why? He couldn't resist your charming personlaity
Your Song? Hyde's Evergreen
And afterwards? He writes an entire album for you.

Quiz created with MemeGen!

You Walk In On Hyde & Gackt by jabberbug
Username:
They are... curling each other's hair&watching Carebears
They ask you... if lil people talk to you in your sleep too
You... laugh so hard you lose sight&bang into the wall
Number of your Brain cells this will damage: 6,970,182,889

Quiz created with MemeGen!

You and Hyde (l'arc-en-ciel) by Miyavilover
Your Name is...
Your Age?
tell me what you think of hyde.
You will meet him... at his concert! You got backstage pass
he will... Write a song JUST for you!
you will... think he's a good friend
he will look like- http://www.blogger.com/


Quiz created with MemeGen!

Your JRock husband by Choco
Username:
Your zodiac sign:
Your JRock husband is... You (GacktJOB)
How you met: I threw my undies at him
Marriage day: September 27, 2032
The fate of your marriage: you sold him into slavery

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Will I make it to 2006?

2005-06-18T12:10:00.000-07:00

"Soba ni itte, zutto kimi no eiga o...mitsumeteita."
["Wanting to be beside you, I stare at your smile all the time."]

Damn... doesn't even mean anything to me... doesn't even have a connection with what i'm going through for the past 2 weeks as a Senior. Excuse me... 2 weeks and I feel I've lost a battle midway. How is that possible? Maybe I'm being pessimistic again. Thinking of fear when it has not even whipped. Or maybe it's the main fact of being a Senior - "Ladies, so much is expected from you."

Who expects? The school? The parents? The siblings who finished highschool/college/work?

PERHAPS... EVERYONE! EVERY SINGLE ONE! EACH ATOM IN THIS SOCIETY IS WATCHING US! See that, 2nd week and I'm sooo into Physics... even Psych 101 gets into me.

Fact is, I didn't take any "extracurricular" activities that would help me relax. My minor is for life purpose. My club is for society purpose. My work is for yes, every atom-purpose...
PARA AKONG CREAM! ALL-PURPOSE! GRABE NA TO!

I'm basically a good student. But when things get heavier, the good student can also shrink... she has the reason/reasons to shrink even for a little time... say, an hour. Well then, Kimi has to come back... she must. But I hope I'll be able to control her. I don't need fights. Hell, EACH SENIOR DOES NOT NEED ANY FIGHT AMONG OR BETWEEN ANOTHER SENIOR. Face it, mentally and physically sick from 6xa week of school then you get emotionally sick too - can you handle that? NO. No one can. Especially with this kind of level.

I'm telling you, this may be for the best, mga kapwa-seniors.. pero sana mabuhay tayo hanggang 2006 without breaking down/having to be cell-reduced!

zZZzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzzzzZzZZ...

2005-06-08T21:11:00.000-07:00

Instructions:
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions

[Mga Tanung ni EX sa akin]
1.bakit baliktad magbasa ang hapon?
= kasi siguro napagtripan nila na ganun magbasa para masabing "cool" na sila noong unang panahon pa lamang.
2. what's with hyde?
= I don't know... maybe he's having his laundry right now, or maybe he's getting some.
3.ano ang paborito mong banda of all time?
= Masasabi ko na L'Arc~en~Ciel na nga. Hindi lamang dahil sa paggaling ng kanilang kanta, dahil na rin sa mga anti-aging products na ginagamit nila PARA LAMANG mapagtakpan ang "wrinkles." Hay, ang kalolohan nga naman.
4. ano si winnie the pooh, babae o lalaki?
= Ipagpaumanhin mo, kahit wala siyang salawal, hindi ko makita ang itinatago niyang kasarian. Sabagay, para mo na ring itinanong kung ano si Kimi.
5.what is kimi kudou's ultimate dream?
= Kung panaginip lang talaga, maging foster-dotta ni Ginoong Takarai, makilala ang mga tinitingala na rakista sa bansang Hapon, maging isang magaling na pop-star naman [para maiba...] at mamuhay na naliligo sa kasiyahan at pera! Kung totoo, makatapos ng pag-aaral sa medisina, kumuha ng Doctorate degree sa Univ. of Tokyo/ Sofia Univ., mag-asawa ng wafu at mabait na asawa [maging Hapon/Pilipino man...], maging mayaman sa pamilya at pera, at mangyari ang panaginip na sinasabi ko. Siyempre, hindi ko malelet go ang makapag perform sa madla.

Salamat EX! At ngayon, kayo naman ang sumagot kung gs2 niyo ako ang magbibigay ng tanung!

First day of school namin kanina... masaya naman, sabak kaagad sa Psych... wow! Bangag na ako. Antok na antok na. 9 months pa to chong. Hindi ako bibigay!

Let's Get Started, READY.STEADY.GO!

2005-06-06T11:21:00.000-07:00

HHHHHHaaaa~aaaay buhay! I went to school this morning...I knew my room, got to see the people who'll be sharing it with me, I met my adviser, I saw the corridor and the place, I saw old classmates and some friends... life. Why... of all years, ngayon pa! Graduating na ko please lang... masama to.

Aun, I guess my mom's reading my blog ne? Kasi nakainstant web address ang blogspot sa computer naku... sige lang. It's okay naman e. I've got nuthin' to hide.

1 and a half day to go... gising ng maaga, kain, ligo, pasok sa school...not to mention the life emma gonna lead sa school. Nice goin'... ang labo ng buhay! XD

Anyway, this is my last post for the week -bawal nga ako magcomputer e eheheh... ayt..jaa!

LET'S COMPARE!

Nishikawa you... you *pouts* kawaii little man you!!!!

How many times do I have to hurt my OWN eyes! Oh the Disturbance! Oh the pain!

I guess that, that was the style er-... 15 years ago. Style ng mga almost-lolo natin ngayon. *grin*

Is this even... HAIR?!

2005-06-03T18:06:00.000-07:00

I LOOK LIKE A BOY. *crickets... owls... lizards...* Sabagay, what's new?! Pero hindi e!!! Pramis! Cge, Japanese style of cut nga but bishonen cut naman! Hmmm, kakkoi desu ne? Hhehehe...

Today, I had a blast! I've spoken with Ate Ralyn [yup, 2 years lang ang gap natin... ok. Hhehehe!] and her hubby Kuya Mike at wow! Salamat ng marami! I really enjoyed your ideas! Saya sana ng debut ko ehehe!

Hmmm, I can't show a pic of my new hair kasi hindi ako natutuwa dito sa system ng pagupload ng pic ng blogspot! Grabe excuse me... do I need to download and maximize my mother's computer MB before I upload ONE LITTLE PICTURE?! Curses! Curses, I say!

JUNE 8, 2005 ANG FIRST DAY OF CLASSES!!!!!!!! La lang, tuwa lang ako kasi hindi kami sasabay sa traffic ehehehehehe... pero hopefully, malakad ko ng maayos lahat ng application [?!] form ko ehhehehee!!!

SENIORS! SENIORS! SENIORS!

Kahit na ba magkaleche-leche ako sa kapwa-student ko, basta maganda takbo ng graduation ko at grades ko, wala akong pakialam sa inyo! Pero siyempre, good girl/wafu na ako. OO na, PROMISE!!!

Madaming Pagsubok, Madaming Paraan

2005-06-01T18:21:00.000-07:00

Para bang title ng tele-novela... hmmm, labo amp! Heheh... so yah, where did I end my updates uh, oh yah! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIJIN! Nyah! Belated, luv! Happy birthday too to my bistfrind Ivan and to my ever-loving father, Jim! ^_^ Mga Gemini... laging nagpapasaya ng buhay yang mga yan. Wag mo nga lang machempohan na mainit ulo o HB! Nyahhehehehe...

Hmm, yesterday was supposed to be the most stressful and exciting day of my life - what the hell happend, you say? The stress, excitement, anxiety, hypersensitivity and yes, PANIC[!!!!!] was changed to mildness, rebond [ndi buhok putik...], light fun, vanity and yes, milder happiness. Kay sorry, old friends, kung ndi ako masyadong high nung umpisa at well, hanggang dulo kasi po ndi ko... well. Ang hirap magsalita kaya hanggang dito na lang ang masasabi ko. From a high-level, I went to flop. Grabe leader, wag na sana maulit pa. Kahit na September pa ako. Please naman, consideration. Suportahan niyo naman ako, kaibigan naman ako sa inyo e. Remember, "COLLEGE COMES FIRST." Ikaw nagsabi sakin niyan. *smile*

Honestly, want me to say it? WE'RE ALL DIFFERENT NOW. And it's great! I admit, it's very good; however, the "bond"...gets lost, get? parang... ok, hanggang dito na lng tlga. For old-time-sake, let's just be together. Pilit na ng konti ang pagsasama... masakit isipin at tanggapin pero, alam niyo ba na hanggang ngayon, hindi niyo alam kung sino talaga ako. Surface lang kasi ang alam niyo e - no need to say it kasi dapat nga alam niyo na yun. Kay hindi ko alam kung sino ang talagang nakakaintindi saakin na taga Weasleys. Yon. All honesty na yun a.

Ganda ng Revenge of the "Zit" hehe... madaming yaoi. Hehehehehehehe.... ^___^

AISHITE IMASU

2005-05-26T19:57:00.000-07:00

Wow! I'm sick and got sick on the day of my eldest son's birthday... what's that!? And I woke up this morning to see 2 ceiling lizards [butiki... oo na, gusto pa ceiling lizards e] mating on my wall... excuse me!!!

So... now, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAN!!!! AISHITEIRU, JIN!

Jin, I can't thank you enough. You're a really good friend and you'll always be my friend... damn, wanna cry hehe... I love you and please take care for me. I wish I could see you again, onegaishimasu^_^

Oh yeah, June 6... wow. Pasukan... I just want to study, have my debut with REAL friends, get my diploma and enter my college. Go to Japan and go back here then die happy and rich [money and family wise]

Ne, jin? Hhehe... family... nyak!! KIDDING!!! KIDDING!!!! No really, is it nice to raise a family there... in Japan?

WAFA!

2005-05-23T19:55:00.000-07:00

So I'm a great example of 'pretty-but-has-the-potential-of-being-wafu'. But when your older sister sees a person who looks like a girl who has beautifu brown hair, eyes that are covered by shades, and well, let's say the older sister saw a cleavage on that person, pretty and sexy wouldn't she be? *scoffs and grunts* But the sexy-had-cleavage-person onechan saw on POPJAM last Saturday night was non other than HIDETO "HYDE" TAKARAI!

KSO!!!! How could that be ne!? And I saw him [nope, not the cleavage for crying out loud!!!] with my own two tired eyes! HE WAS BEAUTIFUL!!! Kakkoi ja nai! We're talking KIREI NA here!!!! I was so envious!!!! VERY, VERY BEAUTIFUL!!!! Baby face, soft ironed hair, baby height [sorry, Hyde hehe..] and well, nice clothes. HE'S SO GONDAMN FREAKISHLY PRETTIER THAN ME! Okay, vain time, but I'm speaking the truth!!! PRETTIER THAN THE MOST PRETTY WOMAN YOU KNOW! Honestly, he's prettier than his wife. Oops, no, really. He is.

Oh yeah clothes... THAT POP JAM HOST NEEDS MORE PANTS! That bulge... damnit! KEEP IT TO YOURSELF, MAN!!!! YOURSELF, I TELL YOU!

Hmmm, today, I just remembered some things from my childhood. I saw some old photo albums... boy, how I'd love to have a kid that looked like me before. I had a happy childhood, and I'm a happy person now. And I guess the mother-father genes are really good too. My family loves me and so, wow... I want that in the future too. ^_^

ABANGAN...

2005-05-23T19:40:00.000-07:00

UGG PRO EVENT (Saturday; May 21, 2005)
10:00-10:45 AM = Wait for Jay [with mama].
10:45-11:30 AM = Liwaliw with Jay [sing, 3pping, Timezone, meet ppl, saw wafu #1&2.]
11:30-12:00 PM = Went inside the event; met Chua-san; met Sonar; went out to eat.
12:00-1:25 PM = Ate at Tokyo Tokyo; saw wafu #3; met Jay's friends; washroom; UGG Pro event venue.
1:25-3:00 PM = Tripping inside the event; picture taking; chika; stalked wafu #3. [wafu tlga e! grin]
3:00-3:15 PM = Met KR; went down for a walk; back to event with KR.
3:15-4:15p PM = Met more people; watched the cosplaying contest; went out - met AC people; sang with Jay [Orenji no Taiyou]; went inside again with Roy.
4:15-5:00 PM = Saw EX [Percy/Cori]; chika; went out to have privacy. [nyahahah!!!]
5:00-5:45 PM = Talk [seminar] with EX - serious talk -; went back inside - with Jay, Kodomo, Sonar, Roy, KR and Hans; met kaasan with Kuya Chris.
5:45-6:15 PM = MGA MAIINGAY AY NAGSAMA-SAMA - discussions on HYDE, Gackt, Luna Sea, X, Weiss, Malice etc... and how old they're ALL are.
6:15-7:30 PM = We had our seperate ways [because of "uncommon circumstances - thanks KR and kodomo and the rest for the 'mission'] in eating; met an old man from Jollibee - Sir Dux; swore to myself to NEVER, EVER, wear black eyeliner - it was a factor in drying my eyes out that's why my lens plopped out.
7:30-8:10 PM = Listened to 2 bands; had last fun minutes; had to go home.
8:10-8:15 PM = Met with Rue and Chris [casual drummer]; walk out; went down Expo Exchange and into my car - headed for home.

LAGUNA TRIP (Sunday; May 22, 2005)
7:30-9:00 AM = Prepare and leave home.
9:00-10:35 AM = Road tripping; went to Tita Girly's home; saw the never-before-seen "PINEAPPLE WINE."
10:35-11:40 AM = On the way to Villa Escudero.
11:40-12:15 AM = Site seeing; rode the CARABAO EXPRESS; picture taking.
12:15-1:20 PM = Eating beside the waterfalls - your feet gets wet while eating...saya actually.
1:20-2:00 PM = Panic because my eyes started to hurt again - Lens might fall off again.
2:00-3:15 PM = Cultural show - yup, may konting wafu from the audience and the performers, dami ding bading..., I was given a hand made rooster made from grass by a performer [they were asked to choose from the audience...madami kami nyhahaha]; vidcam...vidcam.
3:15-4:15 PM = Escudero Museum - shrunken heads, anting-anting, artifacts, antique samurai swords etc.
4:15-6:30 PM = Traffic on road way - on the way home.
6:30-7:15 PM = McDonald's food take out.
7:15-8:00 PM = Traffic on SLEX; had home as comfort - eat, watch, bath, music 3pping [SMILE], sleep.

Yo! Gambatte Kudasai!

2005-05-20T12:00:00.000-07:00

Yahoooo!!!! I've done it!! I've done it!!! Though with minimal precision but a little higher percentage of accuracy [Chem, ishatu?] I HAVE TRANSLATED A JAPANESE SONG!!!!!! O yeah! *does a little jig* With lots of determination, day and night I have searched for english words for particualr japanese ones and of course, apply the forms and well, metaphoric translations were highly included too^__^

DOMO ARIGATOU VIC-SENSEI!!! I couldn't have done it without him. I'll be uploading it via Animelyrics.com under L' Arc~en~Ciel. *dance dance dance* [hulaan nyo na lang kung anong song bsta pure jap xa na translated nyahahahah!!!!] I'm really excited to finish it up!!! I wanna see the outcome of my hardwork!!!!!

Okay, moving on, last night, I went to APU Seminar and guess what, Jay, Rue, Kel and a new friend Chris [hi chris!] was there! Damn you guys! If I make a plan, we're not complete, if its in a rush, we become complete. E dapat pala ganoon ang ginagawa ko, 2 days before ko lang sasabihin na may pupuntahan para kumpleto anak ng tipaklong nga naman oo...

Oh yah, Tomoaki-san! He was nice and he was very kind! Totemo shinsetsu, niisan! Hontou ni domo arigatou!!! Di ba Jay? *gringrin*

Un, jaa! I have to go now! Gotto finish my work! Jay, see you tomorrow! *huggles* hayop ka ehehe...

Paranoia Ain't The Way To Live Your Life From Day To Day

2005-05-17T15:57:00.000-07:00

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html
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Yesterday I went to the doctor who would interpret my results. ^_^ I'm all good! No problem with anything internal and external, ii desu ne? Then we went to my other doctor - a bone specialist. He told me that it'll be all up to me whether I want an operation or not. For my lower teeth though, there would be a Multi-Disciplinary Clinic meeting just for that. Now hold on a minute! Am I really that much of a fragile case that's why I'm like this? Nope. I'm not. ^_^ It's just that my family and my doctors would like to reassure my health. I am progressing, and no, I'm not nor was I ever a bulimic/anorexic/obese person just to have these sort of "care and treatment." I'm different. Hell, you know that. I mean, you SHOULD know THAT by now ayt? Oh yah, i went to school today and I saw Mrs. Sumo [Ms. Trillana] yahoo!!! I wish she'd teach for the batch again. I miss her teaching. It's so useful and systematic! Still, the school desn't have the section count yet. Well look at that [peeks at the above personality test] HISTRIONIC sense in me is VERY HIGH. Now what could that mean? Only one thing: SPOILED BRAT.

Symptoms of Histrionic Personality Disorder:
1>Needs to be the center of attention
2>Dresses or acts provocatively
3>Rapidly-shifting and shallow emotions
4>Exaggerates friendships
5>Overly-dramatic, occassionally theatrical speech
easily influenced; highly suggestible

Let me explain: First of all, I BEG TO DISAGREE. Center of attention hn. I may be the spoiled one in the family but it doesn't go up my head. Dresses "slutty" ehem. My friends, I KNOW YOU'VE SEEN WORSE. Shallow emotions, you're not human if you don't have this. Exaggerates friendship, that's what I agree on. Dramatic, I may be operatic but the theater thing helps in my acting.

[H]eroic [Y]ears [D]ied [E]arly

2005-05-15T15:33:00.000-07:00

Heroism... what does the word really mean? To each is own, ne? One can say that heroic deeds are based from the unbelievable fear and courage that people displayed... and yes, caused them their lives. Heroism that gains the level of legendary tales, epics and even theatrical plays. Watashi? Ne, heroism for me is sacrifice. A sacrifice that counts no limits and hithers not into what you think but lies within what you have. Example of that would be LOVE. [Uh, nope... not love-life] Yesterday, I just finished my Nihongo III lessons. It could have been simple enough to attend the last lesson, bow to your sensei then get your diploma and leave... but those were the general ideas. I, my friend[s], had to live the 'between-the-lines'. I miss my classmates, my sensei, my world around the Japanese language. The jokes I finally understood after more than 15 classes, the forms, the verbs, nouns, adjectives etc... and of course, the bond. I'll be seeing them. That's why no one said sayonara... it's always jaa matta. Genki de. *smile* Now I really can't wait for December to come! I wish they'd be there... ALL of them. ^_^

Another part of heroism would be the PAIN. Kyo er-... today, I had my X-ray after oh um, 4 years [>_<] then my blood was checked too. Now here's the problem, my vein is very small... the needle should always be small because my vein doesn't want to cooperate. *glares at vein, vein glares back* After my 3rd [this is my 6th blood checkup] experience with 'blood-bash', which was very traumatic [I... puked my gastric acids after the blood was taken... dunno why though], this 6th one was apparently the WORSE I've ever had! See, I was not so afraid when I went inside the room. So the needle was stuck there, big deal. It didn't hurt. But then the vaccum came, and my blood didn't want to leave my system, so the med-tech had to twist the needle inside my vein... I felt pain, I controlled it. She twisted it again inside, I lost it. She asked me, "masakit?" I nodded. Then my papa came to peep, I totally lost it when she twisted it for the 3rd time. Damn, my tears just fell and I was smiling still but the 2nd needle was inserted and the blood flowed out then it all stopped. The blood was gone but the pain was there. See this, I'm typing with my left hand only cause my right arm is still a little bit... traumatized. Eheheh... all the way to Mc Donalds, I was crying. Too bad for the people who saw it, good for me cause I didn't care about them... it hurt for goodness sake! That's what I hate most. You have pain, you know and you feel pain yet you can't stop it because the pain is inside you. Not just this abbrassion that you can clean and rest well then boom, no more pain. Fact is, my vein's bruised and I'm hurt. Ehehehe... not a laughing matter though, it still hurts!

Heroism... comes with sudden shock and love for anything you believed in. I dodn't have to do this, if only I didn't love my health and had it checked even once in 3/4 years ne? So here... lesson learned for me? I like the needle, but let the blood flow freely! AND BE MORE FAT! I don't need 6% body fat like Satoru! I need at least 100% body fat. [Difference?>___<]

[G]ays [A]re [C]ool, [K]ids are [T]errible!

2005-05-10T18:30:00.000-07:00

Ahhh... I love the SMILE album! Shtig too, may pahabol! ROENTGEN ni toosan! Coolness! For the first time, I heard Angel's Tale in Jap... naiyak na lang ako... guitar pa ang gamit ndi piano! WAAAHHHHH.... zanky mama, zankyu tita emz!

More quiz resluts er- results pala hehe...

I am the Fun ankle wrestling incident!
Which Gackt TV appearance are you?
quiz by acesquad.com

I am Gackt's semi sandy look!

Oldie but Goodie

2005-05-08T16:20:00.000-07:00

I must blurt it out: GACKT'S OLD. Yup... I went as far as to watch MARS with nechy last night, may pawire-wire effect pa c Satoru. Madapa ka dyan e... boy I have a lot of tales to tell. *gringringrin* Then I told nechy that I wanted to watch Pop Jam so we did. Then I saw Gackt [again] 3 years older and still looks er- [gomen nasai... hontou ni gomen nasai] OLD. He sang BLACK STONE... didn't even understood him when he said "Burak Stonu" hmmm.... "what?!"

So yah... having a fight with Nishigawa... I thought he was Kyo! [Is he Kyo?] Or Die?! Damn those small people. Yah, Gackt came to the set... I had to watch Morning Musume first, what a well, they were cute... hmmm, I'm REALLLLLYYYY considering the fact that I can be one of those women but hey... I'd look gay then.

So here comes Gackt with his hair extensions all pasted up with All-Purpose Elmer's Glue, leather pants, self-studied and tested shades, indie shirt and er-... dunno with the hair but heeeeyyyy.... it was black! Puro tirahan naman ang nangyari, height ng host, pagka"tao" ni Gackt [he said something about being unnormal[y] cold then the small man [*smile*] said, "Eh!? Ningenja nai yo! Ningen janai!" w/c meant "Eh!? You're not human! Not human!"], something about concerts and all that stuff...totally freaked me out when Nobodyknows was there. Oh yes, MIYAVI! Ganda mo chong! Marry me!Hehehe! Kidding!.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL YEH MOTHERS!!!!!!

My Mama
Mama Mary
All My Lola
All My Tita
All The Single Mothers
Megumi Takarai
Kaasan
All My Mother Friends
All My Mother's Friends

Seriously, SAY IT!

2005-05-03T19:26:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: December 2

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.
The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.

You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.
You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

READ[FRIENDS/KODOMO]: Okay, this might STING a little from my friends&kodomo[1-etc...]. Can you just tell me. Frankly, please. Why do you hate me so much? What did I do to you? Apparently, I'M NOT KIDDING. At wala akong masasabi kung hindi ka marunong mag seryoso, harapin mo 'tong tanong kong ito. Bakit ba pag kayo ang lumalabas, hindi niyo manlang naisip na baka magustuhan ko din ang lakad na yon? Tapos pag ako naman ang nagyayakag, nasisira naman ang schedule kasi magbaback out kayo in the last few minutes remaining before the event proper or meeting proper starts. I'm sorry. I'm sorry kung angsty pero hindi ko na kasi kayang itago sa mga "okay lang, i understand." At mga smiles at sighs e. Sige oo, sometimes we need to be independent. Pero when you guys have fun and I'm not there, ang sama sa loob ko. Kasi wala naman dapat itago e, yung mga kasama ninyo, kaibigan ko rin. At wala namang masama kung ipakikilala ninyo mga friends niyo sakin ah. Bakit, sumama ba loob ko nung pinakilala ko kayo keyla Ronn? Masama ba akong kaibigan dahil pag gusto ko lumabas, I text you if you want to come along?! It won't hurt to ask me lalo na sa mga event na pare-pareho naman nating gusto: ANIME/SALE/MUSIC&ARTS/BARGAIN-HAGGLES/FOOD TRIPPING/even the simple arcade/malling. Grabe, parang bastusan na kasi e. Kaibigan kung kaibigan pero hwag niyo naman laging daanin sa "ah, alam na ni Kimi yan. Okay lang, tena! Punta na tayo!" Or " Ay naku, wag na... pupunta na lang yun! Game!" Minsan kasi, masakit e. ONE FRIGGIN HS YEAR TO GO. Ganito ang nagyayari, what more sa college. Bahala na? Pag di ako nagtext, wala ka na ring pake? Pag walang Blog, wag na. Pag hindi napadpad sa landas mo, magkalimutan na. Excuse me lang, kaibigan at anak nga e. PAMILYA KASI KAYO. Hwag niyo akong gawing kaibigan sa loob ng pamilya. Nagsasabi lang ako, hindi ako nambabara or nambabarat. You should know by now that I'm not like that anymore.

SMILE

2005-05-01T23:02:00.000-07:00

I just got confirmed...er, SACRAMENT OF CONFIRMATION. And I had SMILE [original album] of L'Arc~en~Ciel as a gift. Thank you, tita Emily! Hehe, first day of May. God, I love this month! n__n

I've got some explaining to do (part 2)

2005-04-26T19:13:00.000-07:00

Gackt - He's a very good artist ne? He's a perfectionist too that's why he's not used to getting 'justs' and 'averages' and 'limits'. Well for me, who is Camui M.S. Gackt? [arigatou for the real name, Aijin] Sorry guys, I can't share the real name hehe. But if you know his real name then cool! Okay, Gackt for me is described in one word: UNPREDICTABLE. They say that female is the only unpredictable sex but hey, have you heard of males saying, "wait, i think this looks better, uh, wait!" or "i said what i said and that's final! [after 2 minutes] wait, i'm sorry let's change it." Hmmmm, I'm not looking for a battle of the sexes, so don't sue me! Gackt is unpredictable in both good and bad situations. Unpredictable in the sense that he knows what he wants and he can get it while you're looking or while you turn your back. Unpredictable because he can make this beautiful music and say to himself, "_______ won't like this so therefore, I'll repeat everything." His face, fashion sense, music and heck, his scent is unpredictable! Come on, who among you never thought that Gackt can look like a woman but can turn his head sideways and boom, he's a man pala! Oh well, as the nerdy web crawler says, "With great power comes great responsibility!" *grin* Dedication, passion, prestige and honor and oh yes, beauty...how could I not include that. *grin* All of which is unpredictable when you add Camui M.S. Gackt to the picture.

Yes, very unpredictable...

HYDE - Okay, admit it. Just like in SMALL PICTURE #2 from my wallpaper, if a guy like him stares at you like that, wouldn't you like, freak out a little or well uh, be conscious ne? *gringrin* He's very attractive. Honestly, best description I can give to him is PLEASANT. Pleasant for sure because he's a drop of golden er-... erm-... yah. He's that. He is cute. Just like his attitude towards life. He may be regarded as the face that one can never forget but see, how can you ever forget a face that has both male and female looks so blended in together that it makes you hessitate to approach such a person ne? Hideto Takarai is really one of a kind. At the age of 36, his 23 year-old face never left his side. And that makes people look down on him or manipulate him but when he speaks. Oh come on! When he sings, try hearing those powerful yoddles and his 'garalgal-ic' manly voice [not to mention the falsetto that he can reach]! He was born to do this. I believe that he was singing in his mother's womb. So now, going back, wouldn't you want to catch those eyes even just for a glimpse. Like hear him say, "Ok. There's another woman who has that special beauty besides my wife." Naks! And yes, I respected HYDE more because he loves his wife. See, all those jrockers/pop-ers who went public with their marriage, sad to say it flopped. [No offense, Camui Gackt-san]

Uhm, pleasant oh yeah...

"ARTISTS SHOULD BE RESPECTED!"
Added to their pretty skin, pretty make-up, pretty hair and clothes, their talent, inspiration, passion and determination to entertain the public is what makes them famous. Sure thing, outer skin matters but the real power lies within. And because of that, respect is what they should have.

I've got some explaining to do

2005-04-26T18:36:00.000-07:00

Okay people get this: NOT BECAUSE HYDE'S HERE, GACKT HAS TO BE TOO! Geez, get a grip will yeh?! People... HYDE and Gackt aren't brothers... uhm, sisters even! They sure look good as a yaoi bishie couple but hey... HYDE AND GACKT CAN BE SEPERATED, ayt? Got it?! Now ZIP it!

I guess I have to explain [no, not for you. I just want to. *smile*] why I said 'PERMANENT' background:

1> I'm sick of looking for other 'good' wallpapers.
2> Tribute to the legendary [face/voice/body wise] Takarai, Hideto-san.
3> I'll take it off after 1-3 weeks or so hehe...
4> I'll put it back if I want to give a tribute for him when [or IF] he [ever] dies. XD

Now while I was answering the tags in the tag board, I kinda noticed the 4 small pics that filters as a side boarder for the whole wallpaper see, here's the story behind those 4 little poses that otoosan did for his 'oh-i'm-such-a-gorgeous-bitch-and-i'm-blonde-oh-damn-what-a-life-i'm-living' kind of day. 0:)

PICTURE #1> [As HYDE was driving to an Italian cafe] "Oh my god! I swear that dude who just passed by was such a HUNK! Ooohhh..." [stares more while petruding his lips]

PICTURE #2> [In the Italian cafe] "La~dee~dah, ooohhhh... more HUNKS!" [stare...stare...]

PICTURE #3> "My cute face isn't working anymore! It's time to revert to something 'old-fashioned'" [Wears his shades and does the 'HYDE-lic[k] manouver] *By the way, it's old fashioned because well, uh du-h! He's old!*

PICTURE #4> "I wonder why they freaked out... tsk! Kids nowadays. Oh good, there's Gackt!"

HA! What can you say about HYDE now? Mana pa rin ba ako sa kanya? Ehehehe...XD [sees a wafu passing by] Uhm, let's talk later ne? [follows wafu!]

Food Poisoned

2005-04-25T14:22:00.000-07:00

Yes, once again I almost faced that deadly -literally- side effect of eating the wrong way and wrong food for that matter. GREEN TEA ice cream that had Fe2O3 + nH2O, where n is 1 and 1/2 H2O so there. I was really scared because I was palpitating when I slept and I thought I wasn't going to see daylight again hehe... at least I'm here right now talking about my little adventure with Mr. corrosion and his affair with my green tea ice cream.

Okay so sue me! I ate the whole pint! >_<# It was my other option rather than having the whole pepsi thing back... Now, what's with the PERMANENT background? *grin*

Kimi: Cool! New HYDE wallpapers!
Conscience: No dear... not hyde... anything BUT hyde!!!
Kimi: Why not?! He's... [looks at the small picture on the left which has hyde looking like a puppy] AAAWWWWW... see that face?
Conscience: O crap. THAT face will deteriorate I tell you.
Kimi: 'd hell... he's still cute, admit it!
Conscience: ...
Kimi: ADMIT IT!!!
Conscience: ...hn.
Kimi: Hello Mr. Ice cream man, one Green Tea ice cream with rust in it please.
Conscience: Upload the goddamn background.

"What's with HYDE?"
Actually, I dunno. Look at him, come on! LOOK AT HIM. I cannot even pinpoint why he looks so good. I think he's cute, see his feminine side and masculine side mixed up so well that's why he looks good. I can't see the manly face even when he was in Pieces [trying to be a man but looked like a-..nevermind instead], he didn't look good trying to look like an "adult" man. And Vivid colors and And she Said... okay, THAT broke my heart for having a really pretty face but still, he looked gay. Drag queen, closet queen, gay. So I guess he's one of the lucky faced guy who proves that he's photo and telegenic. And I thank God for that because it's great to look at HYDE just the way he is. Without posing, without make up. He looks good. But okay, he looks old now and he's got 30 more years to live... i wonder if he would still wear leather pants by the age of 60+... sad thought though, where would he be by then? *sigh*

He is a current crush of mine, Hiroki-san of AZUMI, Orange Days, Gokusen and LAST QUARTZ with my adorable pet er-, toosan who keeps on proving that he's flexible and I'm not.

Koraso to omoimasu

2005-04-23T19:12:00.000-07:00

Ahahaha!!! Sorry, can't help but apply what I've learned. Kyo wa ii desu. Minna wa ii desu. I had a good time thinking of ways to express myself during my 4 hour class and yes, I will miss my batch mates! Oh yeah! I'm not going to level yon with them if ever they do go forward kara gakkuse inochi wa totemo muzukashi da. I must concentrate. Ok, so what can I share for today.. o yes. That I still look like a boy until now. FYI, I look like a 14 year old boy after I take the shower and my hair goes FLOOP on me... ay masaka! Share, yes... uhm, nothing actually.

Mother's Day about to come, hopefully someone knows what gift I want from him.^_^ He may be my eldest son but I think it will take about say uhm.. "all my life" just for him to understand that. And call me 'kaasan' ne? Anyway... since my kids doesn't actually look into what I have to say right here, I don't care actually. Hell, I don't even know what to give my mother! AHA! I shall bake some Chawan Mushi for her^_^ The best that I can make!!!

Ran, iroiro no hontou ni domo arigatou, aijin! Keep in touch!

Beautiful Soul

2005-04-22T19:59:00.000-07:00

"You're inside an expanding world... the secret garden... the secret garden." Riiigggghhhhttttt. Leave it to Gackt to have his "deep" song that has a funny literal meaning tsktsk... Satoru tlga oh! Oh cool! Today, i shopped inside Market Market ALONE. No hard feelings for the people that couldn't accompany me. You all have your own life, it's okay.n_n Well, for a girl like me, having to shop alone - for the first time - is a big deal. If you know how I live, yes... kind of a big deal. I had fun! No bitterness here, okay. I really had FUN! Why? Well, I got to feel the comfort I have with myself. I mean, walking there happy and smiling and less stress because no one dictated what was "good on me..." and "eeew... really gonna buy that ne?" I wanna do it again! I was thinking about "Damn, pa! 2 hours?! How can you do this to me..grrr...arrr..." Then when papa texted I was like, "NO! It's 4pm already?!" Hehehe... I loved it!

Can somebody tell me how to fix my quiz results way down this page? The text and the picture overlap each other. Help, please.^_^ Jaa!

Excuses, Excuses,Courses!

2005-04-20T17:05:00.000-07:00

Biggest problem at hand: "WHAT AM I GOING TO BE?!" See here, everything i want to be in the "near future" centers on humanitarian activities. Yes, to help & to entertain are the 2 most important means I've yet to give for the incoming generation, the "my" generation and of course, the "parents" generation. I want money. ~_~ WHO WOULDN'T?! But see, I've asked myself over and over again... "sure thing! Money for a Jaguar X-Type, mansion, fame, popularity, celeb issues but hey... where's your husband? where are your kids? your family, do you still talk to them? hell, do you even remember them? rest? you don't even know how to smile peacefully nowadays?!" Hmm, overboard? I don't think so. Personally, these stuff can really happen- if you know me and how I live my life, you KNOW FOR SURE that THOSE UGLY THINGS can happen.

Can you help me? I mean, if you're close to me [eewww... not that close that is so freakin' eerie!] can yah help meh? n_n FORENSICS/PERFORMING ARTS/MEDICINE? Which one?^_^ If only I can take college 3x, hell I would! Just to get my degree on BS Biochemistry, BS Psychology and Music... damn I'd do anything! Sad to say I'll be a baldy-oldie by the time I finish everything ne?^^ Hmm, could it be? I mean... there's no such thing as impossible as long as you try right? [Gackt and Hyde's definitely nodding right now.. that perfectionist!^^] Hmm, a doctor who gets consultations for forensic researches and goes for world tours to promote her album. *grin*

Guess what...

I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO BE. O=)

WALLPAPER FOR A DAY OR 2: Sigil of Young Magicians

Who Are You?

2005-04-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

LOOK! MITE O! TINGNAN MO! nu pa ba? ehehe... I've given this beauty a wonderful enhancement. I have a TAGBOARD, i have a BACKGROUND [Setsuna from Angel Sanctuary] and I have a TOTEMO KIREI BLOG!X! Rock on!!!! Ehehe.. now what? okay. I just finished pottery. Nope, no lessons. Just for leisurely thingy... I did it way 4 years ago with my mum so I just had to hold clay today. It was gud. I made a lopsided goblet and an 'i-don't-know-don't-talk-to-me' thing. Lopsided... reminds me SO MUCH of Rupert Grint! Hey-r! Mr. Ron Weasley, sir! Bloody Brilliant Man you are!!! *hug!* O yeah. Just had the weirdest dream last night. There was this guy who I hugged then i was crying when i woke up then my arms were still in the feel of the hug. For sure I know he was real. I just know he was!Hell, he is! So if ever you [again, yes you...] had the same dream. TAG me up and tell me who you are ne? MOSQUITON? FLAMES? FIRE? JEWELS? If these were the things that popped up in your dream, please...onegai shimasu, i need to know who you are. Oh yeah, a little confession for the people that would know or who knows: GOLDEN RETRIEVER IS MY SON. I repeat, GOLDEN RETRIEVER IS MY SON...MY CHILD... "FLAVORED ONE"'S OLDER BROTHER. I'm sorry guys... i don't know how this happened. I chose flavored one so HE [you know who he is] chose Golden...argh! >___< Gomen nasai. Hontou ni gomen nasai.

Anyway... aun! Ehehe... if ever I see or meet that person whom I've dreamed of, I'll give you something special.^_^ Byejaa!

Eshheeerrr

2005-04-18T14:56:00.000-07:00

Try this quiz I got from my kodomo... excuz meh.. trying to get your own daddy now ne? *grin* anyway here!

Almost everything you ever dreamed of!

Gackt quiz - Will you get some?
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Now what? Should I put on more tests with my results in it? Okay....

You like Jrock, but you also like other things too.

J-rock quiz - Are you Jrock?
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I actually might like you. You don't have to worry
about any death messages soon from me, so let's
just chill..

How much Gackt Hates you?
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Yoshiki! Oh, you lucky lucky thing you. Talk about
a sweet emotional hottie. And just look at that
body...whoooo! You know you wanna run your
fingers through that bishie hair of his. Of
course he's going to be bent over his piano
composing music all of the time, but you can
live with that if you can live with him, right?
Of course.

Which J-rock boi is for you? (or, if you're a guy..which irresistable shonen are you?)
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You are HYDE! Oh man, you are so cheap and short!
Since Moonchild your bearded baby face appears
at least once a week in Gackts luxurious home
- and you lead a sweet life on his hospitality!
The fact that he did not already give you the
boot probably is rather founded on your
penetrating person than on your non-existent
charm. You always get whatever you want without
any service in return and do not even have a
guilty conscience - you lucky bastard!

How do you get on Gackts nerves?
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*Excuse me... Hyde STAY AWAAAAYYYY from me... those erker lips plis! STAY AWAAAAY!!!* XD Kiddin' toosan.

BILINGUAL n_n
Youre fully comfortable in both Japanese and
English. Many people are jealous of your
ability to switch at will, but you don't care
because you're JUST THAT GOOD.

What kind of Japanese Student are you?
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A Japanese pop-star : you know how to win the
masses over, talent or not. But you're so
cute, how can we not love you?

what kind of rockstar should you be?
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Huling hirit para sa araw na ito [Em'ma doin' nuthin' see...]

Both! So Wonderful! Two kawaii guys! Oh so
PERRRRRFECT! ^_^!

*~Kyo or Gackt...who do you love more!?~*
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My Bad

2005-04-16T19:18:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, if I keep on writing in here, I won't be able to see my other posts... it'll go to the archive ne? Worse! Ehe! I'm generally happy today. Doshite? Nihongo kurasu wa ii desu kara. I was concentrated enough to really participate. We also had our shiken demo Shuryu Shiken janai. That would fall on May 14. Ehehe... over 20, I got 11. Warui desu ka? IIE! Look, language needs passion, concentration and determination for you to overcome the so-called 'limit to speech'. It was nice, actually...because what I read from my test, I understood. The words, the phrases, sentences! And I'm so damn proud of it! Heck, SO PROUD OF IT!!! That, after Nihongo I, was the test I really answered whole-heartedly. And I'm wishing that I would be able to answer the final examby heart too. n_n Ah, yes. About my post yesterday? Well, I'm still a little bit pissed with what happened. I mean, who wouldn't?! Grrr.... I WILL SUE YOU IN COURT. I SWEAR. GIVE ME BACK MY PARENTS' MONEY. GIVE.IT.BACK. Okay, now what ehehe... uhm, I'm... sick. Officially, I'm sick now wheeee.... o yeah, sensei too. Ki o tsukete Vic-sensei! ^_^ Ne, ne! I'm excited with what I'll be doing if I sloth for 3 days hihihihi...byejaa!

Shame On You!

2005-04-15T19:40:00.000-07:00

I... just lost my plan scholarship today.

PACIFIC EDUCATION PLAN CEO or PRESIDENT and STAFF,

SHAME ON YOU FOR DOING THIS TO THOUSANDS AND THOUSANDS OF PARENTS AND THEIR CHILDREN! HOW DARE YOU THINK ONLY OF YOUR GAIN AND NOW CAUSE THE DOWNFALL OF MANY! YOU MAY HAVE LOST YOUR JOB BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN FAULT BUT LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE!!!! THE NEXT GENERATION WON'T EVEN LAND ON JOBS BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T GET TO FINISH SCHOOLING! SHAME ON YOU! MAY THE 9 PLAGUES LAND ON YOU AND EAT YOU AS A WHOLE! I DEMAND FOR MY PARENTS' MONEY! I DEMAND IT! I DO NOT CARE IF IT WILL TAKE YOU YEARS AND YEARS TO PAY FOR IT! I DEMAND MY PARENTS' MONEY!

You guys weren't even thinking of the future! Didn't it ever occur to you that money value can rise annualy?! Now what will become of parents who worked hard for their child's future? Toiling day by day just so they can give their earned money to your stupid company so that their kid can finish middle school and be sent to a well-to-do university?! I'm not going to be surprised if you gain lots and lots of death threats! YOU DESERVE IT! Even some of your employees relied on this educational plan! SHAME ON YOU!!! SHAME ON ALL OF YOU!!! REFUND THE MONEY MY PARENTS WORKED HARD FOR!!!! REFUND! PAY US!!!! HOW DARE YOU?!!!

See this? This is the abhorrance of one person but by heart and mind, I have the entire society's strife! YOU took part of my future, OUR future into YOUR hands, high and mightly YOU promised to support EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US and now WHAT?! WHAT?!!!!! HOW WILL YOU TURN BACK TIME NOW? SHAME ON YOU!!!

By 2010, if my parents' money, not even half, will not be returned into their hands or my hands I swear! ON THIS DAY FORWARD, I WILL NOT TAKE MY EYES OF THIS CASE! I WILL SUE YOU IN COURT!

PACIFIC EDUCATION PLAN - You Will Pay For THIS!

GrinGrowlGrin

2005-04-14T18:12:00.000-07:00

That weird title... ehe, frankly, I can't do that right now. It would be too much! L_L my throat's tired. Ang baba ng boses ko kanina. Power? yes. I lack it... as sensei says, "it doesn't turn to perfection over night! It will take a lot of time and a lot of practice!" *sssiiiigggghhhhhh* I wish my voice wasn't hard up for the past 3 years... I should've joined MAC straight after PYC. Damedesu! Now it's quite irritating... frustrated, yes? Alarmed, no. Annoyed, chotto. Anyway... did you guys hear about the Magnitude 9 earthquake that will hit QC [it's gonna be the epi center] at exactly 5pm today. Ok, I'm no dum-dum...it's already 6:07pm... past is past but wait... there's more. The sister who predicted that earthquake[same sister or nun who predicted the tsunami] is a French. And 5pm in their land is 11am in the Philippines. Which means... THE EARTHQUAKE IS COMING TOMORROW! not today... nope, not just yet. Magnitude of 9... i guess no one can live through that ne? Hmmm... therefore, ladies and gentlemen, please pray for the residents, visitors, places in Quezon City, Philippines. God knows what will come tomorrow in my homeland. Well here goes! I bid thee, farewell for now if I'm one unlucky kid to be eaten by the earth tomorrow...but if I live through it, then I guess I'll be able to tell the tale. Jaa!

Hitori de

2005-04-13T03:02:00.000-07:00

My parents went to Paete, Laguna today. Nothin' much to do in here... i'm just slothing my way until my soar throat clears but hey, guess what I found out! I can sing even though I have soar throat whooopidooo!!! Hmm. What am I doing right now? Well, just got out from a Nihongo forum... now, I'm here ehehehe!! n_n Ah yes, I just well... wanna dedicate a song to my anata and to my aijin. I recently heard from my aijin and I'm really happy. *blushblush* Heeee... he's studying in Europe now. I guess that would mean a more difficult time to reach ne? It's okay^_^ By heart and soul I know how he is and vice-versa. Well, for the 2 people who have inspired my womanhood. Here goes! n_n

STILL I'M WITH YOU

karete shimatta anata no hitomi wa

yureru komorebi sae utsusenai kara

omoi kogareteta kisetsu ga

soto de hohoende ite mo kizukanai

soshite anata wa awai gensou ni dakare

atarashii sekai o mitsumeteru

amaku azayaka na kioku o

tooi mirai ni motomete

mada minu kaze ni yurare mi o makasareba

dare yori mo yasashiku

yakusoku no nai ai ni akogareta mama

dokomademo takaku maiagaru

tada you sono manazashi wa ima nani o utsushite

nemuru no darou

still i'm with you...

mada minu kaze ni yurare mi o makasareba

dare yori mo yasashiku

yakusoku no nai ai ni akogareta mama

dokomademo takaku maiagaru

isshun no mabataki ni wa owarinai you ni

yurameite miete

yakusoku no nai ai ni akogareta mama

dokomademo takaku maiagaru

Aishite imasu aijin to anata... itsumo. n_n

Ouch

2005-04-12T18:00:00.000-07:00

Damn! My voice is getting very peculiar when it comes to scheduling! How dare you voice box... how dare you. Nope, I'm not a lamenting demented piece of freak n_n It's just saddening. The way I have to sing properly at times then my voice breaks in terms of coughing or I get soar throat now c'mon! I can't live like this!!! WHY?! WHYYYY!?!??! *coughcough* see what I mean. >_< WEISS KREUZ or WHITE HUNTERS, please feel free to read and review my fanfictions. I have the direct link on my link section. n__n My best fic so far is "Getting A Life". You love Yoji? Or Aya/Ran? Ken perhaps? O ok... Omi? [kulit e!] Then it's the fic for you! Or if you love Aya[Ran] too much that you wanna see him-.... *grin* I also have that with "Show Me What You've Got." So yap! o yah! I just finished my butterfly wood carving! So cool! It looks so real! Pieces were given but there were no instructions so I had to be very careful ehehehehe... uhum! Byejaa!

Wafu effect

2005-04-11T11:47:00.000-07:00

Oh mehn! Saya siguro kung makakapaglakad na ako ng maayos! Eheheh, nakakaw0rse to! [vocabs...] Havta work, study, clean, practice... okay! Next year. I WILL SLOTH!! SLLLOOOOTTTTTHHHHH!!!!! SLLLLOOOOOTTTTHHHH!!! ehem. Later, I won't be here to write anything anymore for I will have to re-clean some parts of my sanctuary because... because! I was too lazy to clean the whole thing! Anyway.. UGGame? Nu un? I don't know what that is. Bakit ang daming taong gusto magpunta. Grr... dunno. Ah yes. Day by day my hair gets really... er-... 'agaw pansin' [ang conyotic tlga! AMP!] Uh.. lost for words. Can't write anymore. I think... I have to. O yeah! Gotta print that family portrait pa nga pla! Kodomo gomen ne if I will have to make some minor adjustments with regard to your drawing. n___n kasi honestly and seriously... kuya mo lang yung wafu!! Even your dad wasn't wafu!! WAAHHHHH...................... saka mukha akong suuuper mature dun ehehehe kaya... konti lang ne^_^

Addicted

2005-04-10T20:30:00.000-07:00

My whole body's aching... ittai ~ demo i'm okay. Hehe.. Hmm, I told myself that I wasn't going to write anything here for today but I guess my mind still brought me here. Addicted? I dunno. Craze perhaps but I-... hmmm, dunno. Anway, I just finished watching DNAngel. Fantastic! It was created with a brilliant plot and the romance level was cute. Not at all dirty [looks at Dark...] well, kinda perverted if you think of the [one of the] main character but anywhooo... it was nice!^_^ If you plan to watch it, I recommend it! Ay, try to guess why the title is DNAngel... why? Because it wasn't explained in the story. It's like, you have to figure it out yourself. Even some important details in the plot. You have to read between the lines for you to follow the story. That's why I loved it! Oh, and the animation is calming too. The scenery, the eyes, hair... the wings... o yeah. Cool. Ok, news for the day? Hmmm, for starters, I woke up paralyzed. I slept at 11:30pm but then I woke up at 11:00am.. means that 12 straight hourse weren't enough for me because I literally had to slap my face just to get a grip and stand up! Now I think I know how tiring it is to over sleep too. It also drains the energy that you should have used earlier for that day. Hmm, basically that's it! The whole of me is still aching, my legs won't function pretty well and that leaves me to-... rest more I think. n__n I have to rest more. O yeah. I'm not sick after all. I just-... I'm sore and aching.Hn. Like training and stuff... ne, daijobu. I just hope I can function better for my Saturday class or even just go through this week without added pain ehehe... hai. I guess I just have to continue Nihongo IV in college. I-... can't balance my paper work and school work for my graduating year I-... I guess Nihongo II proved it for me. I couldn't concentrate because the rest that I should have taken for maido-yobi during 3 months in my Junior year was spent in Nihongo II... and I kinda lost my passion because of being tired. I cannot blame myself for this. n_n I understood my Nihongo II... why else would I be in Nihongo III if I didn't! But see, it would be better if my Jap. class and my classes in school were united. So I'll be having that in college. One university + major subjects+ minor subjects = hardwork in one place! No more thinking stuck up freedom outside the barriers. Even though I get a saturday class in college, at least I know that Nihongo will be part of my daily routine in school. I cannot say it will not be a loss if I was the only one who didn't go to Nihongo IV, see that would mean being pulled out from the batch I've been with since Nihongo II ehehe... but health wise, I'd prefer to rest rather than to continue while having to understand just a little. Ahahah! Gomen ne for the drama hehe... but I hope even just a part of the inspiration I got for Nihongo I would pass by as I finish with Nihongo III... for me to prove that I can... that I am... A LINGUIST BY HEART!

Laguna Girl

2005-04-09T18:48:00.000-07:00

AT LONG LAST! I'm soooo happppppeeehhhh!!! After almost 6 years of living in a commercial area of a rural land, I get to see the REAL province. Well not only see! I got to taste, feel, smell etc!!! I was up and about by 8:30am then we all left at about 10:00am in time for our reservation at Antonio's - a very fantastic restaurant with a sensational ambiance and a 6 course meal to die for! Next off we went to Taal Vista Lodge to get a good sight of Taal Lake. We all made fun of the seen ehehe by being fools with every click of that camera. Then my family went to the casino near by and of course I wanted to! However, the call of nature [literally] was too strong for me that's why I ended up riding a horse! Bloody Brilliant!!! Joker -the horse- was cute. He was smaller than the average but very cute. Eheheh... I had this beautiful 10 round with Joker and I made sure he gave me at least 3 rounds of fast track running! Ok, a little limp and lame for a horse...that's Joker fer yeh! But he was a nice horse.^_^ I'm actually very tired now. Kinda sick because of the dust and the cool weather but it's okay! My throat is also a little bit stingy because of yesterday's 'sessions' ahahah. Hmmm, after the nature and casino tripping, we were ready to go home. But wait... there's more! Along the street we saw a wide variety of fruits so we bought a lot of fruits! [God, what am I? Elementary student.. see the range of my vocabulary when I'm trying to make this fast coz I'm tired?XD] Then I told my toosan that I saw 8 stands of Colette's Buko pie so we chose the biggest stand... 3rd from the last by the way. I almost choked my dad to death! Ehehehe... so nechy and I went down to buy some more food and BOOM! I'm back here now. Pretty cool if I may say so! Having to do all those with your family and with their personal consent of course. I don't have to wait for Lakbay Kalikasan now. Hmm, I hope my dad wants cave hopping and rappeling^_^ Nope. Then nechy will have to accompany my journey next time.... sayyyy, next week perhaps? Ehehe.. ayt! 0;)

Blastin' Good Time!!!

2005-04-08T22:58:00.000-07:00

"YUUUUSSSSHHHH!!!!" Ahahahahahhaha!!! Very, very funny indeed! I loved it! Every single moment was fun! fun! fun! Thanks Rue for a wonderful home to spend time in. It was a good day though I am totally tired right now. But it's nice to recall all those details ehehe. So I went there about 10:30am and we had to panic a little coz Jay wasn' t there yet ahahaha!!! Kel and Rue went out [me too!] to find Jay. Cool enough, Kel was left behind and retrieved [Golden?! jodan!] Jay for us! Wapooo!!! So then we started our plan and had a good time! Want me to describe more, ayt! I..well, I was off! I was wearing an all orange, Chinese get-up with white slippers, Jay was wearing a white shirt with green lays for the collar and sleeves and tight jeans, Kel was... very much at home! And Rue as the host was wearing his usual shirt and pants. Orayt! Now gotta sleep... tomorrow my family and I are going to Tagaytay! Emma gonna tell you all about it tomorrow. I'm really pumped. Very,very tired see.. O yeah, I was with Kiere yesterday.. tee-hee... kawaii!!!! Ehehehe.......... XD Bye!

Why?

2005-04-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

"Masakit isiping..." Have you ever thought of listing the things that makes or made you depressed? Those that had a long or even short effect on you? Hn. I've...never tried doing that but for my fears, I have. Most of the time that's what my mother and father would tell me. "TO FEAR FEAR ITSELF IS A VERY DIFFICULT FEAR TO STOP."True! Very true indeed. Death? Everyone is feared by death. Who wouldn't? Not knowing what lies on the other side, having to leave all your loved ones and loved 'things' behind in stagnation, worse of all... the pain you have to go through if your death is not as quick as you would have wanted it to be. I guess the saying, "the last thing that enters your mind before you die are the good memories of your life time..." makes your agony shortened ne? I mean, about to die and all you see are smiles and love and sweetness and cool. Ehehe, I'm just pondering. I have no intentions of suicide or any of that kind. Afraid? Yes. I will be afraid to spend the rest of my life chained in the mixture of hot and cold deep, deep in purgatory. Very, very, very bad for my health see. Extreme hot and cold. tsk. Totemo warukatta! Ehehe... anyway. There. You? Yup, you. No not YOU from Gackt Job. Well, ok.. him too if he was reading this. [HIM?] sure, sure, whatever YOU want[s]. XD kidding aside, you... will you be able to call the name of your loved one when you're about to lose your life? You think.. just think. Will he be able to even, let's say, feel it? Spiritual energy perhaps? Hmm, me? Maybe I will call his name... maybe-... maybe I just did. But for him to hear or feel that moment of despair.

Well, no. He is, after all, JUST SECOND BEST.

Sanctuary: clean up time!

2005-04-06T11:22:00.000-07:00

M-W-F havta clean! T-TH havta sing! F-Sat havta study! What is this anyway, Kimi?! SCHOOL DAYS!?! So I don't have much for summer, point taken. Hope so... but actually, those 'summer-breakthrough' are my summer engagements^_^ It does dull the fun-fun-fun sometimes but I really like what I'm doing. Cleaning my sanctuary for 2 weeks won't hurt as much right? Having 12 sessions for my sing-a-song career will win me miracles to exert more effort in delivering God's gift better ne? And my nihongo kurasu. It's a nice way to appreciate my being 'insightful linguistic' and it will help in the near future^_^ Sofia University future ahehe... Damn. I'll be able to sloth more after May 14. Everything ends on May 14. Then I've got 3 weeks to do all the slothy stuff I wanna do. Coolness! Kiere...Kiere... hehe, I hope he forgives me for the loss of time. I don't get to spend time with him because of.. unavoidable circumstances. Yah, as if I can give that kind of explanation while he waits for me everyday of his life just to spend some time. Baka ne! I'm so sorry. What a dilemma! Kiere is a good guy. Almost too good for a human being [is he EVEN one?!] but see... anata. Grr! Oi anata aishite imasu. :) That's basically it! Kiere's a good friend, Ran's my best friend, Chamcha's my best friend's best friend [i think going over to boyfriend :D] and Sat-... anata is my anata. My anata... dunno about him though. Haah! I don't need that answered.

Anata

2005-04-05T23:03:00.000-07:00

Of all people, anata! Stop entering my mind when it's bedtime already! Geez...for crying out loud! Look at this! Can't sleep because of you... 11pm. DAME!!!!!!! @__@ Uh, anyway, everything seemed to fall on the right stack and my life is still precious for me. Reflecting on life? Let's see. I was born a happy person though of course when one grows older, one tends to feel the pressure of REALITY. Actually, it all depends on how you pick up your cross and how you struggle to take your cross to the "safe" line. No matter how it gets heavier and larger day by day, the will and the way relies on the person. *sigh* This heavy feeling I... suddenly have. Is it because of -... *looks at frame* matte ne, this is not a fanfiction. >_< Don't get me wrong. I'm not in a problematic state. It's just that. Oi anata, if our son is the one you chose then help me with him! Don't just tell me what to do! Work your ass off and see to it that he gets what he deserves! Most especially from you. You are the father afterall. Onegai. Do something damnit!

Template-ING

2005-04-04T19:44:00.000-07:00

Damn! What a hard work! Of course I'm not yet satisfied by how this blog looks like. See, it has a certain analogy to it. I'm like re-arranging my whole house, and I need to take it step-by-step just to admire every enhancement I've made. :) What a rippppppoooofffffff if I may say so myself. [silence] Once again I find myself speechless. Why? Because almost everything I've accounted for is in my Hi5 journal. There, hinthint. Wanna read more? Then just go there.http://www.hi5network.com/friend/displayJournal.do?userid=3828849

Hey uhm, if that link doesn't work then I guess I'll just have to repost some of the entries I have from Hi5 [kasi ala na talaga akong masabi wakakaka! Evil ehehe...] Okidoki! Jaa!Oh yah! Tanjoubi Omedetou Kurapica-kun no HunterXHunter!

HYDE [re-post]

2005-04-04T18:32:00.000-07:00

Angsty aren't I? hehe... it's well, eto.. anou... tsk! How will you feel if you just placed your wrong foot down on situations with people you care for? For example... HYDE. I do not wish to elaborate on how "close" or how "bonded" I am with Hideto-san because I don't need your comments/ opinions/suggestions as of the moment. Hyde is well... HYDE. A human being who wants to make a difference demo my respect for him went down to about 75%..do hope it changes. Well, it mainly comprises of 2 reasons. 1> a man such as he turned rence went too far for me. [BLURRY EYES video] I went to 100% out to be more beautiful than me. [yes, thank you... it rhymes] 2> I'M CHALLENGED BY MY OWN FA-... nevermind. "And she said", "Blurry Eyes", and "Stay Away" were hinting on something that crossed my mind before but i just shoved it off because of my great respect for the person. Damn.. Blurry Eyes left me drained.. just sitting there, watching him look like Madonna.. IT.HURTS. Stay Away was cute but his *coughcough* was very VERY obvious! And She Said... there! That totally freaked me out! Then again, a challenger's flag came right in front of my face so hmmm...
SUMMER '05: Can't wait for it. 3 months of preparation for my fath-... 'his' challenge. I'm gonna give him a pc. of my mind. *eyes the "Pieces" knife* hehe...

Root Explanation

2005-04-03T18:39:00.000-07:00

What am I even doing here? Ehehe... hmm, summer's still cool for me though I'm still having a little trouble with petty things. Ah yes, Nihongo III is great! But I do feel bad whenever I do not understand some things my sensei says. See, as I've written in my profile, I have the passion for language. I just tend to sloth once in a while that's all. Truly, I love every language I come across! Maybe that speaks for my Blog title too, ne? But nonetheless, okay here's the deal. ILLUMINATI - heard it from one of the J-pop idols, Camui Gackt. And I loved how it sounded and when people say it. Come on! try saying it. =3 SANCTUS - still remember it from my Music class '04-'05. It just sounds great, that's all! Anyway... I'm kinda reckless for this first post simply because I don't know what to say ehehe.

iLLuMinaTi ~ SaNcTus

MAJOR much

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

BAKA!

Date # 3

I woke up and I forgot I love you. ~KiMi

Date # 2

THIS has got to be a sign!!!

Let's and Go = Let Go?

Date # 1

YoUKiMiYoU

2 Panalo, 2 Talo

Putra... anodaw?!

Goodbye, my dearest Juniors.

If I sleep now, will I wake up happy tomorrow?

Bachelor of Science in Chemistry

SENIORITIS

For my Toosan...

Ohhhh Booooyyyy

Camui M.S. Gackt - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!

...and I can't take my eyes off of YOU.

Tell Me, Somebody Tell Me

YOU

F*rbidd*n F*ckin' L*ver

DLSU.UP.ATENEO.UST.

Momentus Day - Over and Out

Momentus Day - Over and Out

TOOSAN

5 days, 133 hours, 7980 minutes and 478800 seconds

Personally, I do not have a Personality Disorder.XD

"God told me...

I am VERY Confused.

Watashi wa Oji desu.

Special *a-choo* Day 4

Special Day 3

Special Day 2

[H]usgado [K]albaryo [I]log

Kimi no Tameni Dekiru Koto...

Blood+H2O... H2O+Blood

Special Day 1

Kimi 101

Hold My Soul

There can be no Love without Trust

The Keys to Your Heart

June: OUT, July: COMING

QUIZ R' US

Will I make it to 2006?

zZZzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzzzzZzZZ...

Let's Get Started, READY.STEADY.GO!

Is this even... HAIR?!

Madaming Pagsubok, Madaming Paraan

AISHITE IMASU

WAFA!

ABANGAN...

Yo! Gambatte Kudasai!

Paranoia Ain't The Way To Live Your Life From Day To Day

[H]eroic [Y]ears [D]ied [E]arly

[G]ays [A]re [C]ool, [K]ids are [T]errible!

Oldie but Goodie

Seriously, SAY IT!

SMILE

I've got some explaining to do (part 2)

I've got some explaining to do

Food Poisoned

Koraso to omoimasu

Beautiful Soul

Excuses, Excuses,Courses!

Who Are You?

Eshheeerrr

My Bad

Shame On You!

GrinGrowlGrin

Hitori de

Ouch

Wafu effect

Addicted

Laguna Girl

Blastin' Good Time!!!

Why?

Sanctuary: clean up time!

Frbiddn Fckin' Lver

Special a-choo Day 4